給十五歲的自己

To the 15 yr old me,

At fifteen, it was the best year in your secondary school life. Because you got to know friends who would be by your side for the rest of your life. Though you all would not be in contact everyday in future, your friendship might become a little distant, but everyone knows, deep down in their heart, who to look for when you need a shoulder to cry on, a listening ear to listen to. As you grow older, you face obstacles. Like how you chose studies over friends, a decision that you regretted after that, but it's ok. Everyone learns from their mistakes. When you proceed to a next phase of life, working & earning money as times pass, you get to know people who are in the same boat as you. Learn from them, your best buddy. Learn his spirit of fighting till the end just for a simple reason. Learn his ways to curb shopping habits. Learn to face good and bad people from everywhere. Learn to see how people behaves. He is your best friend, & he would continue to be. 

When you are to choose your course of study that would decide your future, choose according to what you like, not as to what other people wishes you to be. People might influence your thinking, but do not let yourself get influenced. School might be far, it's ok. It's just three years. What matters most is that you are happy with what you are doing, because this is what you want. 

You love wushu. Your little dream is to at least take part in a competition; no matter you win medal or not. You've got the chance. Cherish it! Learn well, do not disappoint yourself, do not disappoint the people who put in so much effort for you. Aside from that, embrace the chances when you've got the chance to learn things that not everyone get to do so. Yes, coaching is hard. Everyone who went through this will experience this rough patch as you. But do not give up. You can do it!

Polytechnic life is the time when you meet many many people. You meet the best friends who would scold you awake. Do not blame them. They are letting you know how to face the harsh reality. You meet people at work who goes through all the scoldings together, burning midnight oil together after work just to get reports done. You meet someone whom you would fall in love with. You meet many people who shares the same passion for wushu as you, and go through the harsh trainings and lots of sweat together. You meet the craziest bunch of classmates who grumble and mumble with you through the hardest modules & yet, the passion never dies. 

Working life is not easy. You've went through the times of juggling between studies and work. But when it's time for full time work, you would start to miss the times when you were studying. You would rather study hard modules than work and face weird people everyday. You would start to miss studying. Think on the bright side!!! You get to know more friends, they widen your sight. You know more people whom you can talk, laugh and cry with. 

& kick that bad habit of yours. the you who doesn't know how to cherish things and people until they are gone.

Continue to further your studies if you want to. Fly as high as you can. The world is big.

Remember, what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. This is what you need to keep inside your mind.

Best wishes,

From the 20 yr old me.