发泄中。。。

i don't like this.
i'm twenty this year. not THREE YEARS OLD.
can you kindly respect my decisions?
let me make my own decisions? is it hard?
even if i fail, i learn.
just let me learn the hard way.
& not making decisions on my behalf without my permission (just because you are of seniority)

you are not my mentor, you didn't teach me any of those orderings and stuffs.
you have totally no right to tell me not to listen to my mentor.
i have my way of doing things, just learn to respect it okay?
i am the one doing the ordering. not you. so just keep your mouth shut. i'm fine without your help; without you telling me how to place my things, without you MESSING MY THINGS UP.

you don't want to do the physical work, fine! i'll do it.
you don't want to help with the clearing, fine! i'll do it.
just let others see how the girls are doing the guys' job while the guys are doing god-knows-what.
not that i mind doing the guys' job. i'm used to it anyway.
i just hate it when you use 'clearing stocks' as an excuse to do simpler jobs.
i just hate it when you clear my items using YOUR WAY and asking me to follow.
like HELLOOOO, WHY SHOULD I!
i just hate it when you start to complain that we overstocked our items when you can't find a place for those items.
like HELLLOOOO, WHO IS THE FIRST ONE WHO ALWAYS SCOLD US WHEN WE RAN OUT OF ITEMS!
like HELLLLOOO, WHO IS THE PERSON WHO TOLD US TO ORDER MORE!

please, just do EVERYONE  a favour. if you don't know anything, just keep your freaking mouth shut. no one will think that you are dumb.

seriously, i know what to do.
seriously, i know who to look for when in need.
seriously, i know i do not need you to teach me what to do
seriously, look out. beware. i'm gonna show you i mean what i say.
no, not only you. everyone.
that i can be independent.
that without you, i can survive on my own well.

you have made me a very vulgar person these two days.
i need to start quitting scolding unhealthy stuffs.
& thanks to those who are here to listen to me grumble and mumble.
thanks to those who joked with me to cheer me up.
:)

anyway, on a side note,
i went back to hougang yesterday.
踢腿 a little. the after effects were not bad.
skipped the 跳跃 .
my 后扫 is totally cui. oh well, expected. it was nv good in the first place.
my 套路-s are lagi worse.
basically beside 五步拳，功力拳, others, i forgot a little here and there.
HAHAHAHAH! omg.
one day, i need to start getting them back. one day
one goodness-knows-when day.
lol! :D