WenQiang kor kor & family is now in Japan.
JAPAN!!!!!
*envious*


mommy says it is ore or less confirmed that most of daddy's side family would be going to Bangkok during December.
of course, it also includes our family.
BUT
excluding big sis & me.
one. i would be slogging off in SGH that i cannot go for the trip.
haiz.
that sounds so 'great' right?
whole family is away having fun, while you are slogging your butt off.
:(


& i told mommy i want want want go for holiday when i graduate.
even Genting Highlands i am also fine.
at least i can play all i want with no worries.
& who knows, i can go & gamble awayall my assets
& wait for daddy to bring me back to S'pore.
just kidding...


mommy gave me permission
that if next year, WenQiang kor kor & family would be going HK or any other place,
i can tag along with them.
yeah!
BUT, that is only if they are going lah.
they are in Japan now, who knows if they are going anywhere else at end of year.
& if they are not planning to go anywhere...
i will be so so so so sad.
:(


Tracy said something tha triggered me.
She says she raher spend her time doing useful things rather than sleep it away.
she says she thinks this is a waste of time.
that made me think. i feel like i am like wasting my time everyday.
many a time, i can use the time to do many things, buti just did not do it.
& it's time to find that surge of determination to do things back.
there are many things i want to learn.
& i am going to use this time to do it.
i want to fight the tiredness in me.
STOP BEING A LAZY BUM, LIM SHI PING!!!


yes, i am sad.
i admit i am expecting something.
something that never came.
i expected the impossibles.
but do i always do?


i had hopes held high up for the past weekend.
expecting something.
which never came.


you brought me high up into the air, believing that
even if i ever fell,
there would be something for me to fall back on.
& that the fall would never be a painful one.


& now that i really fell.
i realized.
there is nothing for me to fall back on.
no cushion, no strong arms.
just the cold hard floor, which i landed heavily on.
injuring myself many a times.


& i still continue to believe you.
that one day,
when i fall,
it will not be painful anymore.