Have you ever been in love Horrible isn't it ? It makes you so vulnerable . It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up . You build up all these defenses , you build up a whole suit of armor , so that nothing can hurt you , then one stupid person , wanders into your stupid life .. You give them a piece of you . They didn't ask for it . They did someting dumb one day , like kiss you or smile at you , then your life isn't yours anymore . Love takes hostages . It gets inside you . It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness , so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart . It hurts . Not just in the imagination . Not just in the mind . It's a soul-hurt , a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain . i hate love .

-Neil Gaiman

but i still love love.

for who the person is;

for how the person makes me feel;

for how the person makes me into.

tired. boohoo~

i thought sat would pass smoothly.
i thought Mr White would give me better luck at work.
i thought i thought.

& really, everything passed quite well.
until the last 10 minutes.
'scolded' by doctor.
spoil my day.

now, i hate warfarin. i hate ACC.
stupid irritating pills.
rarr rarrr!

monday onwards, it's week 11.
2 more weeks.
i am tired.
i wanna try something new.
i dont want to do picking and packing for the rest of my life.
i rather go in front and sit with one dispenser and learn dispensing.
at least i learn something new.

monday, 16th nov.
shall be one of the happiest time in my 3 months of attachment.
coz it's time-off day.
i claimed all the 7 and half hours i have into one day off.
great!
i shall rot myself to the last bit. :)

hoohoo!
this week work sooo fun!
hahaha!

actually this week afternoon shift is at fever clinic.
but in the end no have because of some reasons.
so stayed in OPD lo.
but there were days when i did went over to help out too.
keke!!

tuesday;

no new love from this week onwards.
this week was Khairul's turn.
hahaah!
ACC is cool to max.
but recently a bit tired of warfarin.
maybe because have been counting too much loose tablets le. haiz

wednesday;

Mr Kelvin came to visit Khairul.
of course he did not forget me.
heh heh!
did chat a little with him though.
&&&
was stationed morning shift at fever clinic.
& there were 2 old patients who could only speak hokkien.
and fever was only me & Kamsiah.
so i had to do translation.
so the situation became
old people speaking chimilogy hokkien to a girl who speaks easy hokkien.
i felt like a chicken talking to a duck.
LOL

thursday;

did first ever dispensing.
before that, we went through a little more on retail stuffs.
and me and Khai were like so tired.
actually, our brain were already in snooze mood from roll call onwards. hahah!

wore lab coat @ work.
different people, different opinions.
suzanna said i looked like a mad scientist. -.-
khai, ZS, charmane they all say i look like doctor. :)
i forced charmane to say i look damn cool in lab coat. :D
i forced them to say i look like Tim-sir in Forensic Heroes in lab coat. ;p

dispensing was fun.
the two of us sat beside Ms Sanisah
and she showed us how to do dispensing lo.
then she made us do it too.
but we dare not.
haha.
she forced me to do it first la.
and luckily i did.
coz the basket had only 1 medicine. hoohoo!!!
so did the dispensing. was diclofenac sodium
i will remember lor!
i did everything nice nice. but i forgot to indicate DA. LOL!!!
but ok la. overall.. quite fun. heh!

after work, walk with charmane to Hougang Mall.
talk about work, about dispensing.
& i told her, i hope to attach to someone who has patience.
hahaha. because what i think i lack in me, is patience.
& hopefully the 'buddy' i am attached to is able to 'influence' me.
but in such a short time, i guess it would be hard.

friday;

Samuel played some magic tricks for us to see. hahah!
& yes, we were stunned.
especially the 'women's intuition' one.
damn cool la.
coz he didnt even handled the cards. & yet the trick was successfully done.
*stunned* *claps for him*
no wonder Uncle Amran always call him 'magic man'.
haahah!

today's work was not special though.
i broke my record, because i did not log in my account to do packing.
only do capturing. heh!
felt lazy to do all these things.
i'm left with 2 weeks,
I WANT DO SOMETHING SPECIAL!!!!!!

*****

i've gotten my white specky!
hehe!!!!
i love my Mr White.
heh! :)

-MISSED-

hoohoo!

blog blog blog~

i wanna blog about saturday before i forget. heheheh!

first, work.

actually that day got fever clinic de.

then in the end dun have.

then in the end have again. LOL!

i was like running here and there between both sides la.

i was damn suay on that day too.

first, the pharmacy system was down.

and if that is not troublesome enough,

i got locked out of my own account too.

ITD was too busy to help me.

& took them like whole morning to get me logged in once again.

hahahahah!

by the time they got me logged in,

it was time for me to take my bag & say byebye liao. wahahahahah!
& if that was not enough,
i stupidly and dumbly cut my own finger with a pair of scissors,
& ended up with a bloody finger that got bandaged up in the treatment room.
the nurse even came over to pharmacy to look for me coz she thought it was a super deep wound.
(eh, pain leh, even though in the end say it was superficial cut)

secondly, IVP.

chiong-ed down to NP via bus 74 from Hougang.

thanks to SzeHui & Fanny & Coach GuangYao for the tips.

by the time i reached, was over half time.

caught the long weapons, soft weapons, sparring & team.

woohoo to Team NYP.

we got overall second.

YEAH YEAH YEAH!

toured around NP a little while finding my way to sports hall.

sorry cousin, no offence, but.

i felt a little glad that i am not studying in that school la.

hahah!

after the whole competition, shared cab with QJD.

he came around when sparring time. 

a 'wonderful senior' who rushed down to watch his teammates compete right after his booking out.

hur hur! LOL!

& a 'sweet' senior who helped his junior carry his weapons & help me carry my bag

coz i am like sooo lazy to carry it while my back is aching like shit.

(eh, he should feel honoured that i let him carry that precious adidas bag hor!)

LOL!

actually was suppose to share with JT, CW and YT.

but ended up split cab coz no one willing to take 5 people.

dropped QJD off at Hougang, then i cabbed back to TM to meet family.

super ex can!

totally forgot about this thing called 35% surcharge lah.

but luckily i still ok with the cab fare.

lastly, family night.

met family (except daddy coz he got wedding dinner)

for SWENSENS dinner.

jie jie treat leh!

hahah. know why she treat?

coz i have been bugging her to treat. hoho!

swensens was nice nice nice!

after that went to optic shop.

i was supposed to get my contact lens solution.

but the shop discontinued it.

& i ended up buying a new pair of specs.

-.-!!!

my intention was just to let jie jie see which one i wear look nicer.

ask her if the red one is nicer or the white one.

in the end,

i thought i like white nicer while everyone says red is nicer.

blah blah blah..

anw,

i ended up with white coz i still think i like white better.

then i bought it liao.

OMG!

and 200+ bucks just flew away like this.

hahahahah!

but ok la, this amount of money.. is sooner or later de. heh!

& yes, this is my wonderful yet tiring saturday. heh!

work:

yeah, let's continue blogging about work.

it's into week 10!!!!!

week 9 has just ended.

next week, we are into dispensing already.

yeah yeah!

it has been fever clinic morning shift this whole week.

not bad. time pass quite fast.

i surprise myself by always being on time for work.

being the third person to reach HP after Mr Chong & Uncle Ahmad

(they always reach at 0730 de.)

& that's not because i cabbed there unlike my first 8am shift.

even though i have been snoozing my alarm clock for the whole week.

leading to me running to interchange to catch my bus. heh!

well well.. 

guess what.

next week, i am going to fever clinic again.

haha. but next week is afternoon shift la.

2 straight weeks at fever clinic.

i hope the third week, i am not there as a patient.

OMG. choi! *touch wood*

this whole week, i am having break on my own because of different timing with Khairul.

feel so lonely lor.

i miss gossiping with him,

i miss bitching in front of him.

yesterday, we went to mac mac to have dinner.

gossiped, bitched, & laughed at lots of things.

things that happened at OPD when i wasn't around,

things that happened at Fever Clinic when he wasn't around,

sharing our different experiences... 

laughing our heads off.

creating scandalous rumours among ourselves.. *shhh*

attachment life is great when you have a super great buddy.

yeah! :)

i don't care if they are reading my blog or not.

i trust that they do not stalk me.

me:

somehow,

sort of realize that i only come to cherish things when i have lost them.

& the problem is, i don't learn my lesson.

& that is why i have been losing so many precious things.

you know what, 

the promise i gave you.

i have always kept it. really.

i've got a feeling;

all along, you think that i would not mean it.

i would not keep it.

but the fact is, all along, i have always meant my word.

i have always remember what i promise you.

& i have always been keeping my word.

but have you?

不是我食言， 是你先放弃我。

how many weeks have passed?

how long has the very very very last promise been given & yet still not fulfilled?

i once wrote that i will not ask you for it.

i won't.

you are one irritating person who is messing up my emo life.

entertainment:
finished 仁心解码 quite long ago.
the ending was a little stupid.
that time actually want to watch 下一站，幸福.
introduced by Evelyn.
but it's still a new show. so i am waiting for it to finish airing le then watch ba.
hahaha!
the bored me is now happily watching Forensic Heroes all over again.
yes! 法政先锋!!
watching that show makes me miss lab coat days.
working at OPD now, i wish that i have a white coat like the pharmacists.
the long sleeves one.
so formal, so cool, so shuai.
watching Forensic Heroes makes me wish that i can put on my white coat, working in lab.
but aiya, i've come to a conclusion that i am not fit to work in wet lab. haha!
&&& did i tell anyone that when i watch that show,
the person whom i admire most is Tim-Sir?
simply love his brains. the walking encyclopedia. 
hur! how i wish i have brains like him.
& Khairul & I have come to a conclusion that the fastest way to become a walking encyclopedia
would be:

burning BNF and Martindale and stir them into water and drink it up.

hur hur!!!!!  

oh well.. haven't been blogging for quite some time?
this week.. nothing special anyway..

work:
fever clinic all morning.
except the fact that i got 'scolded' on Skype for nothing
there isnt much special.
anw, the 'scolding' wasn't even my fault.
apparently, the biatch did not get her facts right before she types.
ain't bothering myself with her & her nonsense. *humphs*

tuesday,
unexpectedly, i got to go ACC again.
was quite happy coz ACC was like my new love.
but this week's one was abit.. erm... indigestable.
i got wow-ed again.
i felt sort of dumb. LOL!

& & &
ILO finally remembers me!
hoohoo!!
he's coming to visit. like finally!!!
hahaha!!!
but after he comes, i have nothing to look forward to already.
:( LOL!

wushu:
grading's coming.
i am so not prepared.
mentally.
discouraged; unmotivated.
whatever~
chiong chiong chiong all the way!

i dont know why am i posting this now. maybe due to emo-ness.
had a small chat with kor kor last week.
& it was a happy & depressing chat.

happy;
because it has been a long time since we last chatted.
it's not always that kor kor come look for me for a chat lo.
haha.
& because he got what he wanted.
he has a bright future
he knows what he wants in future.
& he has gotten it.
congrats.

depressed;
because on the other hand,
i dont know what i want.
my future is grey.

i dont know where to go.
many ask me, would i want to further my studies?
& i say, yes, if situation allows.
i know i still have 3 more months. but it seems like it's time to think about it le.

mr chong asked where would i go
nithyia asked me if i would go back to HP
& many others...
my reply is still idk.

study? where?
NUS? let's face the reality.
Private? how about the time and the cost per module?
Aussie? for 4 years. can i make it?
& the cost of going aussie.

aussie used to be in the back of my brain. i wont even think of it.
but now i am actually thinking of it.
but, can i afford? in terms of finance & abilities.
come on la, i am not that smart.
what if i can't make it there.
would i come back crying?
unless i go marry a billionaire who will sponser me to study there.
& even if i repeat, i still can survive.
-.-!

work?
as what?
PT?
pick, pack and dispense drugs for the rest of my life?
10 years down the road,
20 years down the road,
30 years down the road,

i am still picking, packing, and dispensing drugs.
like what i have done during attachment.
would i be contented?

as a PT, no matter where i go
my job scope will never change.

with a pharmacist license, i can do more than just cooping myself in a place.
a different environment, & i can learn new things.
comparing a polyclinic, hospital & retail.
see the diff?
can i do the same if i am a PT?

haiz...

hoohoo~
it feels as though it is just a month ago when Khairul & I were like
'11 weeks & 6 more days to end of attachment.'
a blink of an eye, we are left with 3 weeks to end of attachment @ HP.

today is stock take day.
like what everyone hoped, everything ended fine.
i had fun counting the counters assigned to me.
my 'act cute' drugs. haha!
i was fine throughout the whole process,
except for a part when some bitch had to come on & spoil everything.
messing up my counting without telling me.
so pissed, i felt like messing up her counters by messing up all her prepacks.

time flew throughout stock take.
& when it was time to go home, it was raining super heavily.
lightning, thunder, everything.
Khairul, Charmane & i ran across the road to bus stop to wait for our bus.
we were drenched despite our umbrellas. LOL
kept laughing at each other. many cabs passed by, but no buses.
till we got fed up, wanted to get cab.
but whenever a cab passed, no one stopped it.
HAHA! but we hopped onto one in the end because there was really no bus la!
wonder what happen to all buses lor...
cabbed to hougang mall, dinner-ed & home.

*****

had been drinking coffee these few days as breakfast so as to prevent myself from falling asleep at work.
until now, i think i have caffeine tolerance.
i can sleep on bus despite a cup of coffee.
i wonder what will happen next week. LOL

*****

dear ILO,
do you remember that you still have a student in Hougang Polyclinic?
& she is still waiting for you to go and visit her before her last 3 weeks ends.
waiting until her neck has grown long. haha!
i think i will cry if Mr Kelvin comes and visit Khairul, but left me aside.
*pouts*

*****

silence is the best friend who never betrays.
- PC at HP

this week start work at 0930.
next week start work at 0800.

no 'eye candy' for 2 weeks.
awww...... boohoo! hahah!

on a brighter side,
0800hr work & it's morning shift at fever clinic.
heh heh heh!
& ending work at 1630 means woohoo!
hahah.

stock take tmr.
let's pray that everything's gonna turn out fine.
am so going to use the methods kally kor kor taught last time.
hope everything ends on time. :)

hellooo! hehe!
today's only tuesday.
but i am blogging about work. heeheh!

***

this week is late shift.
dont know why, but i just dun like it this week.
& it's just plainly because i don't like it.
haiz.
 work late shift means cannot see eye candy.
*pouts* hahahah!

everyday, i go out of home late.
& that means--
chionging all traffic lights even though it is still red man. (cannot learn ah!)
running after green man at traffic lights.
walking damn fast to the interchange on time to catch my bus.
running after my bus at the interchange.

[tmd. i didn't even ran that fast during my NAPFA 2.4km run lor.
$&&&*^%&$&()))_%%^&^*
LOL!]

Monday (26th oct)
work was horrible.
was deprived of sleep like totally.
could almost doze off at any one point of time.
submitted log book, writing that i hope to get to ACC (Anti-coagulant Clinic) one day.
& the next thing i know, Ms Sanisah told me, tmr got ACC, & i can go with Mr Chong.
woohooo!!!!!
reached home & wanted to study hard to prepare for ACC,
coz Mr Chong would definitely ask me questions.
but i was too tired.
slept at 9pm last night, thinking that i would wake up earlier today to study.
but, hur hur, i ended up sleeping it away. LOL!

Tuesday (27th oct)
super duper excited to go ACC. idk why. hahaha!
read up on warfarin on the bus.
i brought my lecture notes along! dun laugh. it helped lor! haha!

during work, keep telling Khairul that i scared Mr Chong would forget to bring me along to ACC clinic.
but in the end he didn't leh!!!
during lunch break, he came up to the pantry, & told me where the room is.
& he left a note with Samuel to tell me go the room find him.
SO GOOD RIGHT???!!!! hahahhah!
took my notebook & notes & stuffs, and went to find him.
patient wasn't there yet
(anw, pt put aeroplane in the end lor -.-)

so i had one hour of warfarin lesson with Mr Chong.
he taught me super many things.
explained lots of things which were not elaborated from lecture notes too.

& of course, asked me lots of questions.
he's super patient with me;
let me think of what i want to say,
although he laughed at me coz there were things which i could not think through.
yes, he LAUGHED at me. hard to imagine lor!

anw, he was super nice. & he complimented me
say my knowledge is there, but just need more exposure on application.
because  know how to answer his questions, as in can grasp the points
but not totally exactly to the point.
 he also say we've got good lecturers in NYP. hahaha!
i brought my lecture notes with me to the clinic,
& he let me refer. in the end, he also got look through the notes
to see what we learnt.

i was sad that there wasn't any patients today.
then he told me, there is always next time. means next week or 2 weeks later.
he might talk to Ms Sanisah about it again. SO GOOD!!!!!!!!!
then he ask me why i love ACC so much. he thought i tired of picking & packing.
but i told him coz it's interesting. & while others dun have the choice to come, i have it.
& he just laughed. like LOL! -.- didn't expect that.

anw, i hope i get to go ACC next week again.
dont mind getting questions again. hahahaha!

suddenly, i sort of 'admire' Mr Chong a lot.
hahaha.
not because of what (dun think y y),
but because of his knowledge towards things.
envious? maybe?
fanny & others once say that he is the 'walking dictionary' of the pharmacy.
he knows super lots of things.
even when Nithyia was preparing for her competency test, he was helping her, guiding her with chimilogy stuffs.

suddenly, i hope to be like him one day.
if i have the chance to study more,
i want to learn more.
& not only have the knowledge, but also to apply it as well.

i dun exactly have to be the best among everyone.
i just want to bring out the best in me.

freakingggggg hot weather today!!!!!
felt like melting lor!!!!

today is the most look forward day this week.
& i am sad it is over already. >.<

Work > Home > Vivocity > Sentosa > Home
this is my wonderful schedule!!! :))))

work--
everything's wonderful, except for work part.
hahhahaa!
time passed sooooooo slowly lor..
1pm was superrrr looked forward to,
the time when i can just pick my bag & leave. haha!

vivocity--
finished work, went home, change clothes, change bag.
daddy sent me to MRT station because the weather was simply too hot to walk.

met Derick.C at MRT station @ 3pm.
ps: initial intention was to meet KengBoon 3pm at vivo city.
but Derick.C booked out late..

mrt-ed down to vivo city to meet KengBoon.
chatted alot on the way.. like almost everything lor...
we reached on time, 345pm, but KengBoon was late. AS USUAL!
hahaah!!!
so me and Der went to G2000 to find Kally kor kor first.
i think kally kor kor had the biggest shock of his life when he saw us.
hahahaha!!!!!
chatted alot about the past & present.
like how we miss GTM even though we had been complaining how much we hated it in the past.
kally kor kor used to say he felt like bombing the whole TM,
but now, he actually preferred there. these kinds of things.
KengBoon joined us after a while, & blah blah...
much laughter. fun fun fun!! :)))

stayed at G2000 for a while, then went to KengBoon's all time favourite place to slack.
yes, STARBUCKS!
and yes, KengBoon, that is my 3rd time having it.
and yes, Derick.C and KengBoon, i am that mountain turtle.
LOL!
& for the next 2 hours plus,
we just sat there and chat and laughed about everything about our life.
the past, present, future.

my attachment @ hougang polyclinic.
Derick.C's army life.
KengBoon's in-house attachment in TP.
Classic stories of G2000.
psst, can't believe that KengBoon actually still rmb our 'Bitch VS Bastard' story. LOL!
& time just fly past...
ahhhh... why so fast???
i hope we have a gathering again soon.
now who says friends must meet up often to maintain good relationship?
once in a while meeting is nice too. heh! :)

sentosa
7pm.
went to meet Nel, Eve, Fel , PS
Lionel, YuXing, Ray
went to Sentosa Spooktecular.
hoohoo~
was loads and loads and loads of fun!!!!!
there was 'ghost' just at the escalator liao lor.
we got scared!!!
wanted to take picture on the escalator when suddenly screams were heard.
& before you know, a 'ghost' ran towards us.
OMG!
only at the entrance of Image of Singapore,
Evelyn said 'can we go turn back and go night safari?'
HAHAHA!
well, anw, we walked according to the rows that was arranged.
YX& Fel first.
Ray & PS second.
Lionel & Eve third.
Me and Nel last.
the first three couples were holding on to each other so tightly lor.
me & nel also started to hold tightly throughout. haha!
Msg-ed Der, telling him that am getting scared as we got nearer to the entrance of the building.
& he say, 'See one hit one'
-.-
thanks ah!
the walk in the building was really funny & scary.
i was the first to get scared. & screamed.
-.-
took some photos, got scared, got laughed at.. blah blah.
towards the back, YX did something real funny & everyone just started to laugh our head off.
forgot how long the walk took, but it sure was fun.
coz there were many scary people around.
but not as what i expect, like popping out suddenly out of nowhere lah.

after the walk in the house, went to walk other parts of Sentosa too.
& took photos of the Images Of Singapore. & other ghosts.
hoohoo~
after today, i feel a lil' brave.
just a little.
because i finished the haunted house.
HAHAA!

oh ya, almost forget to mention.
YX & Der are actually in the same company in NS lor!
hahah!
butyeah, they are diff platoon. so they dont know each other.
hahha.
but i guess they will start to look out for each other tmr onwards ba.
HAHAHAHAH!

okies it's a duper long post le.
shall end here.
pics may be uploaded here.
but mostly in facebook la.
i dun wanna hang my blog again. urgh!
tata~
hoohoo :))) i love today. :)))

*edited*

guess what, it's already been 3 weeks. or maybe i should say 4 weeks, to be exact. & what you have promised is still not yet fulfilled. it just made me get more and more disappointed in you. the trust that i have entrusted in you over these few years is declining. i won't ask you for what you promised. it just doesnt seem right. keeping my hopes high is tiring. no hope means no disappontment right? then maybe i should not have any hopes at all. what has happened, has happened. we can't pretend nothing has happened.

but sometimes, i do wish that one day, when i wake up, i would forget everything, so that i wont feel those pain anymore. everyday, i tell myself to stop thinking about this whole issue, but everyday, at the end of the day, i just realize that i still did not make it.

don't worry. i wont cry. 'Because it is useless. your tears do not wash away your sorrows. They feed someone else's joy. And that is why you must learn to swallow your own tears.' this is said in Joy Luck Club. & i agree to it absoultely. i shall learn to swallow my tears. i won't let them fall anymore. at least not for this whole issue. my mind is tellin me this. but i dont know about my heart.

i once say, i will be strong. let me tell you the truth. the truth is,
 i am not stong at all. neither am i as naive as you think i am.
i just dont show people the weak side of me.

thinking back those moments we've spent over the years. the times when you were there when i was down, when i was happy. the promises that we made. & how many of these promises were actually fulfilled? i guess not much. i bet you have even forgotten what promises that you have given me in the past, & yet did not happen. maybe, in your opinion, promises are meant to be broken.

& think back even more. what were the times when i really needed you, but you were not there?
how many times in my life were you there when i was sick & et you are not by my side?
how many times in my life, i was praying & praying that you are with me but you just aren't?

& now i start to wonder.
whe the hell in the first place did i do so many things for you?
why the hell in the first place did i even had the thoughts that you will rememeber me?
why the hell in the first place did i rack this dumb brain of mine to think of ideas
so that i could do things to make you feel touched.

when all of these are just going to be washed down the drain.
you won't appreciate it.
you won't remember me.
& you will never be touched.

we will meet. definitely.
but beneath everything,
it is:
goodbye & take care.

this whole issue is like fireworks.
it ends at the climax.

[ don't ask me who am i referring to. it won't be answered. it's just my ramblings. & please don't read too much into it & start making wild guesses. i will be fine after rambling. :) ]

hoohoo~

back to blogging!!!

work this week @ week 7 is ok.

at least until now, NOT inclusive of saturday yet.

hahha!

it's changed. me @ retail this week.

i got to learn cashiering leh!!!

so happy!

2 years in G2000, did not get to learn it was

one of my regrets.

but i get to learn it now.

& i finally understand what Derick means by saying

'cashiering is not fun at all'. hahhahaha!

this week also had the 2 MOH checks or audit.

so everyone was quite tense, especially on wednesday.

but was ok la.

& yesterday, thursday, was Doctor's day.

so we got to have free lunch.

ok, not exactly free, coz i did pay for it.

& we got to meet most of the doctors.

now we know who is the prettiest doctor.

we know who is the funniest doctor.

but i did not get to see the nicest doctor.

not that others are not nice la, but didn't get to see the nicest one. LOL!

& & & the best part was,

I GOT TO PLAY WII!!!!!!

thanks to Wii guy. hehehehe!

had loads of fun playing it.

had loads of fun laughing at one another too.

LOL!

& i hold the record for the table tennis game. HEHEHEEH!

i hope we get to play again. heee:)

dont know why today i feel happy when at work.

not very happy lah, but was humming songs.

like quite long since i am humming songs when doing work lor.

& i am looking forward to tmr. hope everything will turn out fun. :)

HAPPY 4TH BIRTHDAY TO

SLACKERINACTION.BS.COM

yeah yeah.

it's 4 years & going.

hehehe!

***

i've got 2 blue blacks on my right knee.

thank you, shi ba mo.

i've got a torn skin on my right palm.

thank you, spear.

& grading is next month.

O-M-G!!!!!!!!

someone kill me pleeeeasssseeee!!!!!

***

i'm like so looking forward to saturday.

i can go out & have fun!
LIKE FINALLY!!!!! hahah!
weeee~

hoohoo~
went to Bugis yesterday after work.
to look for that bag that i badly wanted.

practically told everyone that i wanted that bag, but could not,
due to some reasons.
but everyone told me to ahead with it.
hahahah!

anw,
initial intention was to go there alone,
since no one to accompany me.
my usual adidas buddy was nowhere contactable anw.
bleahs!

then WeiMun told me he was at Bugis.
so wanted to go there & find him.
then thought of WeiChong.
so called him up,
& tada~ we went to Bugis.
brought him to see the bag.
ponder & ponder over it,
asked the guy many many questions about it..
& waited for LEONG WEI MUN for some time..
hahah!!!!!
makan-ed,
& went back to the shop.
ponder & ponder about the bag again.
& that guy laughed at me.
grrrr...

blah blah..
then WeiChong drove WeiMun to SSDC @ YCK.
passed 2 ERP-s. LOL!!!!! hahahahahahhahaha!
I simply laughed like some crazy person.
& after that was home sweet home.

hoohoo~

hoohoo~
it's into week 7 of attachment.
we have 5 more weeks to go!
it's time to just enjoy the whole attachment thing.
because i won't have to bother myself with FYP stuffs.

this 2 weeks would be mainly retail.
this week's Khairul, & next week me.

well, as much as i tell people i don't like retail,
seriously, i dun hate it that much either.
2 year of retail. i think i feel tired more than hate it.
until now, i have to admit, i do miss the g2 times.
when we could play around when there isn't much things to do.
i miss my companions there. my friends. my senior, etc.

i miss wendy, derick, leon, jonathan, kengboon, priss, kally kor kor, jazz, elaine...
they were, in a way or another, my rubbish bins when we were working together.
suddenly, i miss retail. haha!
maybe i should not be so anti-retail. i should look forward & have fun there.
hopefully, retail will change my mind of retail again.
hehee. JiaYou lo!!!
:)

haiz.
that girl still has a pile of assigments not done.
that girl still has a big messy table to clear.
that girl still has a messy wardrobe to clear.
that girl still has 2 piles of messy clothes to tidy.

& she is still happily blogging her third post in a day.
& she is still happily facebook-ing the whole day.
& she is still happily playing games in facebook.
& she is still happily watching shows online.
& she is still happily watching 'Boys Over Flowers' on VCD,
thanks to her sister.

this is bad bad bad...
tsk tsk tsk..
*shakes head*

this song, is for _____

会痛的石头

一个人就好

hoohoo~
it feels so great not to go for work on a Saturday.
hahah!
lazing around is the best thing!
don't remind me of my assignment. :(

feel like going to Bugis to look for that Adidas bag.
everywhere seems not to have it already.
humphs.
told them that if i managed to get that bag,
i won't be getting another bag for 1 year.
LOL! possible? i guess so. coz i can't even remember the last time i bought one too.

**

if only i have 100 bucks as my pocket money everyday--
1. i will put aside some part of it for cab fare TO and BACK from workplace.
2. i will go and search high and low for THAT bag.
3. i will save up & go overseas for holidays.
4. i will go shop shop & shop for all the things i want. Shop away all my troubles.
5. i will save up 50 bucks everyday & go get a Wii/ PS3/ PSP/ iPod Touch to keep myself entertained.
6. i will go and buy that big big big Chip&Dale jigsaw puzzle i saw in Puzzle world.
7. i will get myself a double bed & let my toys occupy half of it.

**

an air-con room.
there is sofa.
there is teevee.
what is lack is
a Wii set or a PS3.
THEN it is really going to be heaven.
& u will see me playing & not eating during break.
to the Wii guy, do you mind lending us the Wii set? hahah!

it's just work work & more work

Joke of the day:

Khairul to ZS: 'Dextrometophan is for stomach related disease.'

& ZS believed him.

LOL!

okies, we cannot blame him.

he has no med background.

ps: Khairul jolly well knows what DMP is for lah.

just kidding only. LOL!

pps: Dextrometophan is for cough. hahah!

lalala..

work these few days have been busybusybusy.

everyone is like buzzing around like a busssyyyy beeeee!

everyday, just early in the morning,

we see red lights blinking.

& Ms Pam is not in these few days.

which i don't know is good or bad, coz she works damn fast.

& it's fast, with capital F.

& Mr Chong is not in these few days too.

he seems to be very strict.

he can just randomly pop a question to us de lor!

which reminds me, i still owe him a question.

>.<

& everyday, i complain that i feel sooo lazy to work.

shall stop being a lazy bum.

heeeeeeeee!

aye aye...
i am back blogging again.
hahahaa!
actively blogging!

i had been feeling down for the past few days.
not feeling well adds on to it.
with yesterday morning being the worst,
no thanks to those cramps that i've got.
it wasn't exactly the worst that i have suffered.
because i suffered one FULL week of cramps before.
but yesterday one was bad, because i was working as well.
imagine, so painful that you could not even stand properly,
& yet still have to pick medicine.
which was totally $&#&())(^$*()*%#&%

BUT
thanks to fanny & the wonderful drug, Ponstan
& antacid,
I was back to myself after lunch.
she said that my hands went white due to the pain.
true lah...
yes, we self-medicate.
hahaha.

today was a little better,
but i skipped training at NYP.
that's why i'm blogging here.
lil' better. emphasize little.

i thought today's work was ok.
but i was feeling very tired.
capturing makes my eyes so dry & tired too.
Angela so poor thing. 8 out of 10 prescriptions that she did had amendments.
LOL!!!
i had my own fair share too.
but it was towards the end, when there wasn't much patients then we started having fun.

first, Khairul created a joke when he bought 4 pieces of small carrier to Fever Clinic
when they requested 4 packets.
haha, maybe my fault. translation & communication error.

then when we were helping Fever Clinic top up stocks,
Khairul did many funny stunts that made us laugh like crazy.
even Samuel was amused.
LOL! & i thought he is the cool cool type.
we agreed that Khairul was alreay very very tired.
especially when Samuel asked him to bring over 1 carton of Dextrometophan syrup.
& i already told him not to bring the Diphenhydramine syrup if not i would laugh my head off.
& you guessed it right. he brought thr Diphenhydramine syrup over.
HAHAHHAHA!
Samuel laughed, & told me, 'I thought they changed packaging sia..'
OMG.
Samuel actually said that.
hahahaha!
& Khairul & I felt like factory workers when we were doing pre-packs.
haah.
but i always say, i love doing pre-packs,
because this is the time, when you dun have to use your brain when working.
hahahah!

WenQiang kor kor & family is now in Japan.
JAPAN!!!!!
*envious*


mommy says it is ore or less confirmed that most of daddy's side family would be going to Bangkok during December.
of course, it also includes our family.
BUT
excluding big sis & me.
one. i would be slogging off in SGH that i cannot go for the trip.
haiz.
that sounds so 'great' right?
whole family is away having fun, while you are slogging your butt off.
:(


& i told mommy i want want want go for holiday when i graduate.
even Genting Highlands i am also fine.
at least i can play all i want with no worries.
& who knows, i can go & gamble awayall my assets
& wait for daddy to bring me back to S'pore.
just kidding...


mommy gave me permission
that if next year, WenQiang kor kor & family would be going HK or any other place,
i can tag along with them.
yeah!
BUT, that is only if they are going lah.
they are in Japan now, who knows if they are going anywhere else at end of year.
& if they are not planning to go anywhere...
i will be so so so so sad.
:(


Tracy said something tha triggered me.
She says she raher spend her time doing useful things rather than sleep it away.
she says she thinks this is a waste of time.
that made me think. i feel like i am like wasting my time everyday.
many a time, i can use the time to do many things, buti just did not do it.
& it's time to find that surge of determination to do things back.
there are many things i want to learn.
& i am going to use this time to do it.
i want to fight the tiredness in me.
STOP BEING A LAZY BUM, LIM SHI PING!!!


yes, i am sad.
i admit i am expecting something.
something that never came.
i expected the impossibles.
but do i always do?


i had hopes held high up for the past weekend.
expecting something.
which never came.


you brought me high up into the air, believing that
even if i ever fell,
there would be something for me to fall back on.
& that the fall would never be a painful one.


& now that i really fell.
i realized.
there is nothing for me to fall back on.
no cushion, no strong arms.
just the cold hard floor, which i landed heavily on.
injuring myself many a times.


& i still continue to believe you.
that one day,
when i fall,
it will not be painful anymore.

hoohoo~

some peektures up here!

hehe!

these are just some which are taken during attachment time.

see those 2 badges up there?

it's launched under a 'Moove Love' program for some charity thingy.

cost 2 bucks per badge.

the green one was given to me by Sharon,

& the blue one was given to me by Tracy.

hee :)

& the last two ones...

is taken at the air con pantry

where we just love love & looooveee to eat, sleep & slack during our break time.

hoohoo~

-MISSED-

apparently, when i want to post some pics up,
this blogger has to be crap.
i dont know why.

so no pictures again.
>.<

anw, life has been going on as usual.
met up with Michx & Xiaomao on friday, 09102009.
went to had Pepper Lunch, & they passed me my birthday gift.
hahahaa.
it's damn chio. i like!
million of thanks to the 3 M-s. Miaoru, Xiaomao, & Michie.
:)
shall post up my birthday presents peektures when blooger is back to norm, i guess.

blah blah blah..

& yes, i still want to bitch about work.
hahaha.
ok la. this week should be not very happening, nothing much i guess.
just a lil' change of timing. starting work at 0930 instead of 0830.
hoohoo~ means can sleep in a lil' later than usual. hehee :)
BUT there's still an assignment which is not yet finished.
& yes, we are still collecting boxes like some garang guni so that our dear PS lecturers have many many boxes to show off.
hahhahaha!
okies. boxes & bottles.
poor Khairul has 3 cartons at home now, waiting for me to bring it to Mr Kelvin.
& besides the boxes, we are also collecting those PIL from the boxes.
so we can use it for assignment, & also info collecting.
& i realize the blur girl is into action once again.
because she remembers collecting the PIL for few particular medications,
& yet can never find them in her file no matter how much she digs.
& when she thinks back,
she realizes that the PILs are either in that basket in the polyclinic
or it is in those cartons that we will be delivering to Mr Kelvin.
good job! -.-
*clap clap*

*edited*
work today was horrible plus terrible.
shortage of staffs plus full load of patients.
& it's work work work & more work.
we didn't even had the time to pause.
prescriptions pouring in, labels printing non-stop,
medicines get picked non-stop, and we packing non-stop.
& of course, dispensing non-stop.
we didn't even had the chance to complain.
waiting time was double of horrible + terrible too.
but forgivable, seeing the situation at the back.
which was seriously OMG
something random between me & Khairul when working:
Him: 'ShiPing, I give you 50 bucks, shoot me please.'
Me: '50 bucks only?! How about you shoot me & I'll give you all my valuables?'
haha. it's stupid.
but that was how bad the situation was.
if you all can imagine.
& it lasted for quite few hours.
i am now very very very tired.
until i don't have the mood to move.
i feel like watching movies online.
but then again,
i am too tired to do so.
...
pictures.. other times bah. really really not now.
very very tired, even though i have endless things to do.


why must things turn out this way?
you said it this way, but it turned out to be another.
you said it would stop, but it didn't.
& it's already not the first time.
why why and why?
when reading, i feel sad.
you always say things are not as how it is seem,
but from what i see, it is not.
can you explain it to me?
oh well, forget it.
you wont see this anyway.
you won't even know how i feel.
you won't even care.
who knows, you don't even remember me.
i don't understand. why can you afford to call her, but not me?

hoohoo~

it's now week 5 into attachment. 7 more weeks to go.

hahaha!

don't know why, suddenly have the urge to leave this place like soon.

cannot imagine i am doing this job for the rest of my life.

like so no life.

haiz...

have been at fever clinic after lunch for the past few days.

good & bad.

good is because can sit & do capturing.

bad is because have to face a new 'best friend'.

*grumps grumps & more grumps...*

leading a lifeless life these few days.

it's just work, home, work, home cum training.

and there is an assignment to be done, yet i have not finish it at all lor!

tired.

the only thing i felt like doing when i reach home is to sleep sleep and sleep.

*grumps grumps & more grumps...*

okies. something random.
i saw a Singapre Food Industry van passing by my house today.
that reminds me of NDP 2009. when we were almost always eating their food.
& also reminds me of SOMEONE who is eating it everyday now.
hoho!
okies, end here bah.

psst: blogging from work place. hahaha!!!

i think it's really time to get new specky..

my current one have duper lots of scratches lor...

must be due to all the dropping on the floor & 'crushing' when i am sleeping.

like, when i wake up, specky is on my bed.

like wth... -.-

when did i take my specky when i am sleeping lor...

>.<

maybe i will get the red one.. maybe..

& i feel like getting a new adidas bag.

those sporty ones..

can sling & side those type.

should i should i????

but i haven't find one that i like.

but the problem is, when i find le then decide,

but if i did not buy, then i will feel bu gan yuan.

or maybe thinking of these now is useless..

coz we haven't got our pay yet.

:(

4 weeks down.

8 more weeks till end of attachment.

hoohoo~

blogging!

guess what?

i found my heaven amongst the hell.

hahahah!

if JingTing has her ____ as her motivation during atachment,

i have mine too!

but mine is different from hers lah!

haha!

i like my heaven.

my motivator.

weeee~

:)

yesterday after training at NYP, WeiChong sent me home

with his carrrrr!

haha.

ok, his dad's.

that's not the main point. the main point is,

he drove!

haha.

congrats buddy! 8th day since you got your license.

all i can say is, we don't know the road well. LOL!

but it's ok. shall learn from mistakes that we make. hehehe!

okies okies.

shall stop here for now.

hoho!

my heaven, my motivation. :) LOL!!!

alrights! blogging now, coz waiting for show to load! hahaha!

work: 

work this week is a lil' different, because monday no work ma. so the feeling a bit different. & i start work @ 9am & started work @ 8.30am on saturday as well as whole of this week. start early means time seems to past slower. & have been working OT for the past 2 saturdays because not enough staffs. -.-

 this week, i got to try out fever clinic. & did basic capturing there. it's cool doing capturing. but not fun, when you have to do almost everything there. haha. because it's small, so basically, besides dispensing, i do almost everything la. & we had to wear the N95 mask, which is like OMG! if i ever die in fever clinic, it's not because of the infectious disease there, but because of breathlessness lor!

did some capturing at the main pharmacy too. with those chronic diseases. i think the seniors are laughing at the way Khairul & I do the capturing la. somehow or rather, i think we look funny when doing capturing. i will speak out loud at what i do to myself, while Khairul will go 'wait wait! don't tell me. i know i know!' HAHA!

but capturing is scary too. must believe. jie jie here has experience. shall not say what it is here. P&C. hahah!

haven't fax my time sheet over to HR. & we will only get our pay like end of next month. gosh! think i will be eating grass & drink air for next few weeks bah. or mama shall be feeding me another extra month. LOL!

birthday:

wooo~

i am going to get my watch? woohoo! hahaha!

& i am like psychoing mama to get me Adidas Candy watch.

LOL!!!!!

last time, i keep saying Candy watch nothing special, coz i got a similar one, but is red in colour. but that watch always spoil. & now, it's dismantled & rotten. & suddenly, i think Adidas Candy.. the white one especially.. is nice. hahahah!

others:

i think i have lots of things to buy, which till now, i haven't got it. like my slippers. & wushu shoes. & specky. lots of people say i should get the red one. hahha. i thought so too. but red & my current brown de, like not much difference huh? or maybe i should go for difference. LOL!

visited my optician on friday to get lenses. & she was wow-ed by the fact that my current specky is already about 3 years old. imagine the fact that i used to change my specky yearly, & now, my current specky is like 3 years old liao la!

& mama said, 'Of course so long le still not spoiled la. She paid 220 bucks for it her own mah...'

which is true. i paid my current specky myself de lor!

& wear until the colours all fade liao, still wearing it.

i am power! haha!

shows:

last few months & weeks, TV had been airing 'Fated to Love You'. & that is my second time watching it. but i still think Dylan is handsome. LOL!

currently watching a HK drama online. introduced by Nel.

the show is called 仁心解码. & it's a show about psychiatry. cool lor!

& i like a sentence in the show.

生别的病时，或许动动手术就好了，但是精神病，不是想象中动动手术就好了。

well, the doctor said something like that. which i think is true.

& though i like the brain because it's the master of one's body, i know i can never be a psychiatrist or neurologist because as much as i like it, i can never understand it and its properties. hahaha!

& so, as for now, this blog post shall be written till here while i go & continue watching that show. hahah!

till then :)

it's end of week liao.. seems like i am blogging on a weekly basis only..

archives is going o be so pathetic.

LOL!

celebrated birthday again on thursday.

hahaha.

went to iluma  had dinner with nel, fel, eve, and pei shan.

dinner was nice, but i can't remember the place name.

so hard to remember.

after that had cake too.

haha.

i know the cake name!

it's call Glace. or something like this.

after that went walk walk around iluma.

now i know they have arcade on two levels.

hahah.

nel and eve played the hop hop thing.

so funny!

hahaha.

play play.. then 10pm plus, watched that short horror film. 3D 360 degree somemore...

OMG!

they keep saying they won't scared, but in the end only eve not scared lor!

LOL!

after that went home le...

attachment wise... next time then say bah.

i want go watch show liao...

psst: i want to buy new specky... should i get a red colour one, or white colour one?

haha!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME~~~

& yupps!

today is B-I-R-T-H-D-A-Y!!!

thanks everyone for wishing me

be it on msn, facebook, sms..

& everywhere...

hehheeheh!

shall upload my birthday presents soon, i guess..

1 year ago, when i celebrate my 18th birthday,

i was in HK, as well as on the plane on the way back to S'pore.

today, when i celebrate my 19th birthday,

i am stuck in Hougang Polyclinic with attachment, followed by training at NYP (with cake!)

1 year later, when i celebrate my 20th birthday,

i wonder, where and how it will be?

hmm...

too lazy to blog about last week's attachment.

anyway, there isn't much special.

got to work 8am shift on saturday.

but i woke up late.

LOL!

woke up like 1 hour late.

& left house within 15 minutes, when usually i take 1 hour before i leave house.

LOL!

mummy say good, like that can help her save electricity & water..

-.-

but i ended up spending more $$ coz i cabbed to polyclinic..

that caused me 1 day pocket money.. luckily no surcharge.

was happy that i can get off work at 1230.

but end up coz too busy, so OT half hour.

hahaha. ok la, coz half hour very fast pass too.

went home, slack a while, then went out to meet JT.

eat dinner, went kallang meet dada.

then walk to indoor stadium, watch Wushu Display.

we did not sit at original seats, so went in search of 3 seats together.

so ended up changing lots of seats.

throughout the night, i was sitting beside two sick people.

hahahah!!!!!

but ok la.

i strong! LOL!!!

display wasn't that bad.

but the two of them were bored because got a lot tai ji performance.

while during ba ji quan performance, none of them bothered me.

-.-

LIKE THAT ONE LOR!!!!!

overall, it was quite nice.

i like the shaolin performance, especially the cute boys.

hahahaha.

suddenly thought, like very long nv see my xiao niu liao..

hahahaah!!!

Fill in the blanks:

I think ______________ is a bitch!...

2 weeks down.

10 more weeks of attachment @ hougang to go.

hahahaa.

next week, we might try out filling & capturing prescriptions le.

!!!!!

a little not very prepared & confident yet..

today is friday.

time really pass very fast lo..

doesn't seem like friday at all. hahaha.

i got to do translation today.

so cool & yet so funny. hahaha

i helped to translate counselling points in hokkien.

HAHAHAH!

and my hokkien is half pail water de lo.

can understand but cannot speak those type.

but i managed to finish translating.

feel so proud of myself.

credit to nel, because last saturday, she kept saying 'high blood pressure' in hokkien.

then the meds also for hypertension de.

so i rmb-ed what is it in hokkien.

LOL!!!

& my hokkien is super broken.

can't imagine what will happen if i were to speak hokkien for the whole day when dispensing.

******

after work, popped by G2 again. haaha.

coz ask them help me punch hole in my belt.

& that time auntie sally say they closing soon le.

& yupps, GTM (M) is closing soon.

on 24th September.

i think 24th is last day ba.

like.. one day after my b-day.

feel so..

G2 changed my life in a way or another.

it had been a wonderful memory working there.

made lots of friends.

know lots of people.

a bit bu she de to know that they are ending business soon.

though they will be at T1 la..

but it won't be the same already.

the feeling whenever passing by.

pop in & out of the shop.

& BeeEng say kally kor kor transfer to vivocity le.

hahaa.

somehow or rather,

thinking that it has been a long time since everyone had gathered together for a meal.

maybe one day shall ask ai ren out

ask everyone out.

but seems hard to do so.

Wendy & i have attachment.

adults are working..

derick & ah boy in NS

Mr P dont know when go NS..

blah blah blah...

so ma fan!

hahahahahaha.

*****

& i just rmb-ed.

today is 18th September.

one year ago,

i am now in hong kong for study trip.

time flies.

one year just pass like this.

& one year ago, i knew you missed me & i missed you.

 

累了，倦了

想要放弃了，却又没有勇气。

心有余，力却不足。。

sometimes, it is hard to solve a simple problem.

why is my birthday wish so hard to fulfill?

 

happy 21st birthday!!!!

love the present-Ss yeah?

hahaa.

psst, shall never forget all your expressions. coz you made me LOL the whole night.

HAHAHAAH!

you know what i mean. LOL!
and thanks for the yum-yum too. hehehx!

one year ago,

we were getting all high over going to HK.

one year later, we are stuck in attachment.

legs are breaking.

how i wish that my legs are breaking because i shopped too much in HK.

not because i spent 8 and half hours standing and picking and packing medications.

LOL!!!!

everyday lunch is @ hougang mall.

now, hougang mall is like the second tampines mall.

i'm going hougang everyday,

i can jolly well stay @ little miss chloe wee's house.

LOL!!!

Gelare@ hougang mall has changed to Subway.

sian...

i'm craving for Gelare!!!!

okies.

Gelare shall be added into my birthday wishlist with lots of !!!!!

hahhahah!

anyway, i got myself a birthday present.

hahaha.

i got myself Adidas deodarant.

Game Spirit.

yupp! Adidias. hahahhaa.

& i got it @ quite a deal lo. hahaa.

though i like Ice Dive better, but i think i don't suit that smell. so i did not get that for myself.

hahahaa.

work is getting better i guess.

but supervisor says that first 3 weeks is honeymoon week for us to know there better.

after that the hard grilling will come.

*GASP*

khairul & i got all the PIL-s home to study.

PIL-s & all lecture notes is on the way now.

now who says attachment no need study??

RARR!!!

okies. i need to study liao.

i hope i dont get to do dispensing soon.

not when everything is not at my fingertips yet. >.<

-MISSED-

today is saturday.

11 more weeks to go!!!

haha. jia you!

went gai gai with eve & nel after work.

went to yishun to find them.

then go comex buy my thumbdrive.

before that, went to look for JD and CW.

and their friends at epicentre.

went up level 6 to look for thumbdrive.

we were practically buang-ing our way through.

holding on to each other's hand tight tight,

we squeezed through the crowd. haha

now my shoulders damn pain,

coz i kept using it to knock people.

LOL!

after comex, went to PS

evelyn went to collect her things,

then went gai gai around,

& finally to Cathay to have dinner @ Astons.

nice!

after that,

home sweet home.

LOL!

oh ya, after ending work, i changed into my shorts before meeting them.

& the feel was like..

'OMG! like so long ever since i wear shorts go out lor!'

i think slippers are worse.

the last time since i wore slippers out of home was like..

1 week ago?

crazy luh!

1 week of work ends with 2 conclusions:

1. can die, cannot sick.

think about medical bills.

think about the amount of drugs that you have to eat,

especially if you are suffering from chronic diseases...

& the amount of money you have to spend on it.

2. 把自己的快乐建立在别人的痛苦上

building your happiness on other people's sorrows.

while you are happily taking MC from school/ work/ whatever reasons (your happiness),

there we are packing your prescriptions like a mad hurricane.

that's one of you.

& times it like by few hundreds & thousands of you. (our sorrows).