& this is me: October 2010

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Adventure!

the whole week is fantabulous! hahhaa!!!!
minus all the rubbish at work of course...

tuesday was with poly cliques..
dragged to watch paranormal activity. zzzz
i dont know how i went through the 90 minutes. hahah!!!
but i just told my younger sister it was a very nice movie, and it wasn't scary at all. mwahahahahah!!!!
i think i freak her out. LOL!
after movie was minds cafe. we played the dinosaur game and tre colours.
er hem...
i am now proclaimed ~~er hem~~ HONEST SHI PING!
lol!!!!

thursday was with adventurers.
snoopy exhibiton at hilton hotel, after that was dinner at sakura thai, then muji and kinokuniya and home.
hahah!!
psychotherapy of course!!!!!!!! as though the whole week of fustrations were let off.

friday is last day of pharmacy week.
breakfast was waffles and milk tea. :))
i was supergirl the whole day.
typing champion for 3 hours with no food drink and toilet allowed. with the fact that i havent finish my waffles and my milk tea. couldn't even clear my iforgothowmany cartons of stock.
afternoon was then i allowed to clear. lol. after clearing, e-order, went to store, come back, continue to clear somemore. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!

next week, there will be additional pt-s in. i hope i would not be taken as supergirl. occasionally i don't mind, everyday, im sorry i mind.

happy pharmacy week. i hope from now on i don't have to do interventions like 'i don't know i just copy from IMR' anymore. tyvm. lol

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

grumbles, mumbles and many more

i don't understand. everyweek, there is at least a day where something would happen. a thing that will make my mood go all the way down as though someone threw me hard on the ground. then my face would turn black like charcoal for the next few hours or worse, remaining of the day. what's just so hard to avoid it? is there a solution to settle it like once and for all? it's so irritating! is there a bright side in looking into this issue? like what? take it as i am training my temper limits? maybe in the long run, i might control my temper better? my limits would be higher? like seriously...

maybe there IS a bright side. which is, i've got someone beside me who is willing to listen to my everything. like everything, even though they are plain rubbish and nonsensical. but how long would it last? 2 weeks more only? i don't know. i don't want to think about it.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

everything

i just finished the show 恋爱星求人. i don't like the ending. it made me drop tears a little. not because i am touched. but because i am sad. i am going to emo the whole night. lol.

work wise, monday aside, i feel much better the whole week. see, it's monday blues. i hope i don't have it next week. it's nice to have someone nice to work with. to grumble grumble grumble about every single thing. ADVENTURE NEXT WEEK!

how long was it since i knew he ain't there? now, i dun have the 期待 feeling wherever i go. before that, i would look into cafe & toast whenever i passed by, hoping to catch a glimpse of him. but now, whenever i do that, i would remind myself once again, dun need to look la, he won't be here. sigh... lol

anyway, IT'S IVP soon!!!! TEAM NYP GO GO GO!!!!!!!! i will go down to support everyone! hahah!!!
after ivp, it's gonna be world championship. who wants to go watch with me??? maybe i should go and find motivation. then i would start training again.. should i? seems like i am 有心无力...

Monday, October 18, 2010

Heavy Monday Blues

i had my weekend duty yesterday. today i feel so tired. my legs are so tired i don't feel like standing and walking. i feel like an old lady who cannot stand for long. i stoned almost the whole day. i was the inpatient specialist for today and i had tons of stuffs to pack and type. and i got alot of pneumatic tubes to shoot back to the wards, but apparently, i did not finish shooting them back. i should have snapped a photo of it. it was simply lots. ah lee laughed at me and said that i shouldn't have worked yesterday. maybe today i will regret. maybe this whole week i will regret. but when i know my november pay comes, i won't regret. & when i got my sunday duty again, i will fulfill it myself without selling to other people, & the vicious cycle shall continue.

today maylan taught me something. about teaching students how to work. and i thought about it. maybe the way we taught them is wrong. that's why people can never get it right. not everyone gets everything right the first time they were told so. everyone makes mistakes. everyone forgets. i should not be so impatient. i was once a student, i wished people would be patient in teaching a slow student like me. so i should not wish that the students i guide now goes express streams. sigh.

that made me think of the students at tampines west. i skipped training yesterday because of work. i could have made an effort to go and see them but i did not. they are going for grading soon. i should not leave them alone. 2 weeks ago, when i went back to teach them after going missing for 2 weeks, Crystal said she missed me. RuiYuan said that he was happy because i was back. he even asked how was my injury. somehow or rather, i feel guilty for not going down yesterday. like 对不起 them. sigh...

i haven't finished my korean medical drama. i haven't finished Grey's Anatomy. am not finishing it anyway because the discs are all not working. stopped medical drama for a new hongkong show; 恋爱星求人-- some stuffs about horoscope.

there was this scene whereby the female lead could not sleep in the middle of the night, so she called her best friend, the male lead. he was sound asleep, but he woke up in the middle of the night, entertained her, & even read newspaper to her. he read the weather forecast to her, so she could not ask questions, & do nothing but listen to him talk until she falls asleep. sweet right?

& i asked, how many of us would be willing to do that? honestly saying, if my phone rings in the middle of the night, i would scold some stuffs before asking the person what he or she wants.. would i do what the male lead did for the female lead? i don't know. would anyone do this for me? i also don't know.

last question: why am i having so many thoughts running in my brain. answer is, I don't know. SIGHS.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Revamp!!!!!

been long since this blog has been written like a real diary. hahah!

saturday: didn't went anywhere. intended shopping day became wardrobe clearing day. i tidied my wardrobe, cleared unwanted clothes, & stuffs which i had wanted to throw since ages ago but didn't have the 'time' to. not bad. i threw out one and half bag of clothes. hahah!

sunday: was training as usual. except that there wasn't tampines west training. 10.10.2010 wasn't any day special to me.

monday: ON LEAVE!!!! woke up, watch show, and shopping!!! it's nice to do this once in a while. wearing my favourite adidas singlet, rented VCD-s, went to do my nails, went to buy watches, and went walking around and doing nothing but buying things. hahaa!!! reached home, tidied my table a little. and start watching my shows.

tuesday: back to work. everyone told me monday was a horrible war. they broke record with 550+ patients. on average, usually we served 100+ less than this. but tuesday wasn't much better. the flow was much smoother i guess, but the crowd wasn't. broke record with 560+ patients, but i was inpatient specialist, so i wasn't affected much.

i am happy at home when watching my medical drama, because i got the diagnosis of patient right. :)
patient has a blood clot in artery which resulted in epilepsy i think. dr went through the rx, saw that vit K was prescribed, & scolded the trainee dr. but upon investigation, they realized the dose of vit K was too little to cause any blood coagulation. as patient is regularly on long flights, suspected that blood clot was actually deep vein thrombosis, and not the vit K.
and i got this diagnosis right before the another trainee dr. did. hahahah!!!

wednesday, thursday: it's just plain work. mood isn't good at work these days. i've come to a conclusion i should not care about anything anymore. i don't know whats gonna happen tomorrow. i just cleared my table. here and there. i feel so good about throwing things, and finding antiques. alvin calls them 'ten years of thrash'. hahaha. & i threw away a DIY present that was intended for someone but in the end wasn't given away.

should i take a picture of my neat desk now? hahah! maybe after proper done with, i shall. lol.

after the revamp of my bags, then my wardrobe & the clothes. now m table and cupboard. next up, my laptop and my blog. hhah!

Sunday, October 10, 2010

The passer-by

it's confirmed, guranteed & stamped. he's no longer here. ask if i'm sad? wasn't that bad. because it is half-expected. i don't expect him to be here forever. but just a little because the truth sinks in. and the fact that the next two postings would be further and further away. now that truth comes, i will not be expecting to see him anywhere in the cafes, cheers, wards, pharmacies. not even prescriptions signed by him. sighs. oh well, we'll meet if we have fate; even if it means on the streets. i don't ask for much. the fact he remembers is enough.

wishing him all the best in all his postings. and hopefully may we meet in the same working place once more again in the near future. haha.

this passer-by, he will never know. once upon a time, his smile could actually makes someone's day. he was this 'special'. he is a special bond. :)

Thursday, October 07, 2010

it's back again

it's back again...
the urggghhhh feeling.
it's exactly the same as the previous feeling.
what to do?????
:(((((((((

Monday, October 04, 2010

K Box @ Cuppage

K box-ed with Jaslyn & Ruiyi last thursday.
I think Cuppage is nice.
they have updated new songs..
& most importantly, they have Hin's version of 听说爱情回来过..
hahhah!!!!
:))