i don't have to be the best,
i just want to bring out the best in me.

:))
like what i've posted previously,
yupps, i've gotten my belt.
the long-awaited belt.

it wasn't as long as compared to from green-white to green.
but it had been much more tougher than before.

thanks a lot to coaches & many others who
had not given up on me during those times.

thanks a lot to those who cheered me on

thanks a lot to those who companied me during grading.

u guys know who you are, right? hee :))

congrats to WeiMun for attaining GOLD once again.
heheh!
sometimes, it's great to know that you have a buddy to chiong belt with.
LOL!

both rounds of training today was kinda special.

morning @ HW;
with the exception of 2 rounds of taiji,
i didn't train much after that,
coz i helped guide a lil' boy with his taiji.

somehow or rather, after that,
suddenly i feel that it really has been a long time since i taught kids Taiji.
& i somehow or rather missed the kids @ GRPS,
even though they always make me puke blood. hahahah!
speaking of which, i haven't see my xiaomoomoo-s for so long le! :(
HAHAH!

did kong tui practice with them after that.
condition no good;
apprarently, my thigh muscles have not wake up.
so after 2 rounds,
my butt hurts for the rest of the day.
boohoohoo :'(

night @ Tampines West CC;
got my results!!!
:))
as expected.
got my red-white belt.
:))

towards the end of a lesson,
a small mei mei came up to me & ask me,
可以教我五步拳吗?
*stunned*
hahah.
first time i met such things,
i really don't know how to react.
LOL!

Merry X'mas 09

Merry X'mas '09:

with love-Z--
25th Dec 2009
met up with Xiaomao & Mich at Tampines, lunched @ Swensens.
woo~ 3 rich kids. hahahah!
after that, met Miaomiao, & off we go to Vivocity.
Vivocity was really super crowded,we were so scared of losing each other. hoho!
went to GV, & watched Alvin & the Chipmunks 2.
ps: thanks fel fel for lending us ur card, thanks yuxing for safra card discount :))
show was super super nice!!!!! chipmunks were cute, chipettes were.. ok la. hahah! their dance were sort of cute. hahahah! i like Theodore! he's fat and chubby. hahahah! EAGLE~~~ RWARRR! hahahahaah!
after that, went g2000. miao bought a pair of pants.
kally kor kor gave her staff discount. weet! he rocks! haha!
christmas exchange, they had a hard time guessing what i got for them.
hoho, it was challenging enough. lol!
mich's pressie was hard to guess to lor. hahaha. but nevertheless, we still love it deep deep.
hahahahha!
after that, went separate ways le. & off i went to my X'mas party 04. hahaha!

family--
went to Kovan to meet HuiLin jie jie & family.
& they drove me to Aunt's house.
people arrive, eat dinner, and rotting time.
lol. like seriously.
i was rotting.
stoned for one hour or two.
watched 'Bedtime Stories' a lil
& continued stoning.
finally open presents. hoho!
& they started having this camwhoring session when Chloe Wee was trying on adults clothes.
LOL!!!
& when big uncle was willing to take pictures with us. everyone was super excited when he say OK, coz he usually either say no, or he seldom appear. hahah!
after that, late le. so back to home sweet home.
home-ed, Zettai Kareshi time. LOL!

with G2 Colleagues--
26th Dec 2009
theoretically: everyone to meet at Ehub! at 5pm. hence, i will meet Wendy 430pm at our house void deck.
practically: i met wendy poh 5.10pm, reached Ehub! at 5.40pm when the guys were there since 5pm. HAHAHAHAH! not my fault wor! LOL!

dinnered @ Just Acia. loads of fun, laughter and stories. hahahah! aiya, since when our stories will end? LOL!!! after that Jonathan Pee had to leave, so we accompany him to MRT station. left with me, Wendy & Derick. so we went White Sands Mall walk walk. then went back to Ehub! for arcade, but unsuccessful. waited for Ah Boy, chit-chat.

then 4 of us went to Pasir Ris Beach.
NICE~~!!~~
loads of fun, laughter, & camwhoring session there.
we were laughing like crazy.
i like it. with the night wind, the sea, and etc.
and their companion.. was real nice :))
10pm plus, set off home coz Der cannot take it liao. he was like sniffing away the whole night away, using up 2 packets of my tissue paper. LOL!!!! & he was really tired, i guess. hahah!
home-ed after that.
tired but happy. wee~~!!~~
:))

ps: pictures up soon. heh!

R.I.P Snoopy blogskin;
it's not that i don't want you any longer,
but you cease to exist anymore.
hence, it's byebye to you (*sads*)
and hello to my new simple & plain blogskin.
i want to change style. lol
简单就是美 :))


*****


it ain't suppose to be raining!!!!
i still have another round of outing later on!!!!
aww.. i am sad!

rain rain go away..
come again another day... LOL!
i know my new hobby is to nua at home.
but not today la... i wanna get out breathe fresh air eat nice food and not get fat.
heh heh heh!

second round of Zettai Kareshi last night.
i cried till my eyes were swollen the first time.
second round wasn't that bad,
at least eyes are not swollen.
haha!
but ya, still cry buckets. LOL!
it's nice nice nice. i like Naito!

i'm sad he's gone.
boohoohooo!!!
:'(

Zettai Kareshi!!!!!!
*loves*

Alvin & the Chipmunks!!!!
& Chipettes!!!!
*loves*

Theodore!!!!
*loves loves loves*


heh heh heh!!!
:))

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!

i love my christmas this year.
because i've got loads of presents! :))

everyday reach home,
& i've got presents on my table waiting for me.
heheheh!
friends & family around me are spoiling me rotten with loads of chocolates & adidas stuffs.
weeeee~~!!~~
:))

family is back from thailand.
& i've got lots of presents too~ hahah!
i love it when they are back,
because i get to be 'model' with the clothes they bought back.
& the process of fighting for new clothes with my sisters.
MWAHAHAHA!!!!

okies, i've uploaded pictures from some recent outings.
first up,
Merry Christmas '09 @ Hougang Polyclinic.
not all pictures are here, but all from me are in FB.
enjoy~






uploading 4 of the most favourite pictures of mine.
heh heh heh!
not in sequence of favourites though.
& i'm still waiting for more pictures!

like the ones in Charmane's phone.
us with the huge pillar,
the PS0701's favourite!
and some group photos!!
where where where are our group shots??!!??
LOL!!!

me & irritating slacker in Lily's camera, i think.
argh! photossss!!!!
hahaha!

why am i feeling so tired everyday?
tsk tsk.
i've got a feeling my caffeine tolerance level is increasing.. sigh!
work is good, great.
this week is nice. i hope it continues to be like this till thursday. hahah!

i'm having fun doing dispensing.
my first round of dispensing @ basement wasn't great.
thanks How Tze, 没有跌到哪里会走得远. i'll rmb that. :))

second round of dispensing with CuiWei wasn't that bad.
third round of dispensing with Julia wasn't that bad either.

maybe is different people, different expectations bah;
maybe if she had left me on my own when faced with that problem, i would have solved it myself. coz it's not as though i couldn't faced it. i was just.. maybe a lil' nervous..

today wasn't bad either. got to counsel usage of Nasonex.
Mr Chong taught me the counselling points before..
he made me counsel him the usage of it leh.. how to forget.. LOL!
& i saw a new atas smoking cessation drug.
a drug not taught in my books before. hoho!
& i got to photocopy the PIL. the patient was nice enough to let me do that. heheh!

tmr's starting work @ 9.30am instead of usual 8.30am.
but ending work @ 7pm instead of usual 6pm. *pouts* HAHA!

i'm date-less on christmas eve. LOL! any dates, anyone? HAHA!

WARNING: THIS IS GONNA BE A LONG, WORDY POST!

work:
i realized i haven't been blogging much about work this week. hahah!
this week & next week is gonna be @ B1 pharmacy. now i fully understand why they put us @ level 1 first before going to basement. HAHAH! because basmement is much much more relaxed! i like it @ basement more, like seriously. it's small, it's like polyclinic. just that HP is neater. oops!

anyway, out of 5 days work, i loved friday the most. first, there was KFC plus pizza plus spaghetti treat for lunch. just nice, because i was superly broke on that day. i didn't even had 5 bucks in my pocket unlike last week. haha! secondly, i got the chance to really wander around SGH. my schedule for work that day was running between B1 pharmacy, level 1 pharmacy, BLK 4 (retail) & BLK 8 (store). and BLK 8 was like the furthest. i didn't get to go IP & A&E though. hahah! then, got to observed some dispensing again. gonna do dispensing again next week. YEAH!!! hahahh!

wushu:
REPORT BOOK FOUND!!!!!!! WEEEEE~~~~~ :)))))
& i am so tired from today's HW training. i think because yesterday play too much already.
suddenly, i felt so lucky that sunday morning training is TaiJi. haha. coz i really don't know how to survive if it is wushu training. & super fierce one.
BUT, who says Taiji is relax and easy and not tiring and won't sweat de. i will rarr rarr at the person definitely. it's tiring also ok!!!!!!! *grumps*

Merry X'mas!!!:
Hougang Polyclinic--
had my 2 rounds of celebration already. :))))))
first was @ HP, on friday. chiong-ed down from SGH right after ending work. hahahah! it was super fun, super high. LOL!!!!! Khairul was the last one to arrive. he only arrived when we started to play games. LOL!!!!! lots of pictures were taken, but i'm just too lazy to upload them. hur hur! & i'm still waiting for pictures to arrive too. so.. wait for the pics ba. HAHA!

anyway, had super loads of fun during the games, and when telling my SGH stories to Dr Steve, Mr Chong & Ms Sanisah. hahaaha! especially the part when Khai & i were telling Irene, Mr Chong & Ms Sanisah about our places currently. i think they really laughed to the max. stories which no one would think about. hahahahha!!!!

of course, there was present exchange. SUPER LOVE MINE!!!!! thank you deep deep, 'secret' sender. you are really really my super buddy!!!! HAHAHAHAHAH! & cheryl gave me & Khai a present each too, even though she wasn't around. she gave me Chip&Dale stuffs!!!!! OMG, high to the max. hahahhahah!

&&&, a must-blog thing.
there was lucky draw. & i won the 3rd prize. DR STEVE DREW MY NAME!!! hahahah! but the vouchers end up also become mummy's gift liao. hoho!
the scenario was super funny, at least i thought so.
coz i wasn't even paying attention to lucky draw. busy playing with phone. then he suddenly call my name. LOL!!! & my first reaction was, 'huh, what? who call me?!' LOL!
psst, next time if really draw my name again, we share loot la. hahah! if got chance. LOL!!!

PS0701 @ NYP Apartment--
people only started to stream in at around 7pm ++ lah! LOL!!! when it was written in email 6 plus to 7 start. HAHAHA! but, was still fun. lecturers brought their kids along. LANCELOT SUPER CUTE!!!!!!!!! hahahhah! was in for total lots of fun, chit-chats, & games. hahah! WE PLAYED TWISTER!!!! which in the end i gave up after a long long time, because i had to crawl over PeiQi, June & a small didi. LOL!!!!

then while chatting, we 'showed off' the languages that we had learnt during attachment places. me proudly showing off my 'saya penat gila'. hahah! Khairul must be proud of me, coz he teach me de.
& he showed off the phrases that i taught him too! i am a good teacher!!!
what he had learnt:
我要上厕所
我肚子饿/我要去吃饭
我很累
我要死掉了
HAHHAHAAH! see, i taught him so many things. hahahha!

and we took lots of pictures too!!!!
like Singhealth group, NHG group, FYP-loaded group, No-More-FYP-group, etc. HAHAH! and we had jump shots as well. COOL!!! i love jump shots to the max. especially when DSLR was used, coz can take multiple shots. hahahah! shall wait for Mr Kelvin to upload those pics to fb. hoho!!

went home quite late. reached home like... 1230am plus?? omg! imagine i so poor thing la, 12am in the night, & i was walking home from mrt station because no bus for me. SOBBBB!! so poor thing.

i have decided. my future husband must have a car. i dun mind how lao ya the car would be. as long as have car can already. *grumps*

me:
On saturday, my Mozilla Firefox had error, cannot open at all. like totally cannot open!
had to delete, & reinstall.
there wasn't much problem abt that.
the super duper problem was,
my research works for FYP are all bookmarked in Mozilla Firefox,
& THEY ARE ALL GONE!
:(((((((

love-Z :))
a super random date. hahah!
i got all of them to my house to rot. HAHHAH!
like, for no particular reason.
ok, there was. apparently, i gave them a huge christmas surprise.
& miao gave us one too. hahahah! JIAYOU, GIRL! GO FOR IT!!!
it was raining super heavily, and then we were so lazy to go down and buy food, we ended up calling for pizza delivery. super random!!!! we don't used to be like this. hahhah! really anyhow. HAHAH!
we chatted for long time, telling loads of stories. obviously, i won't blog our stories here la. hahaah!
miao left after lunch to meet her friends @ Safra. & xiaomao & michx stayed with me till 5plus. guess what we were doing? WATCHING TV & ME PLAYING LAPPIE AT SAME TIME!! hahahah! was really a home-y feel; slacking at home doing nothing but rotting. & the best part was, it was raining. hahah!

&&&
the best part of the day was when we were leaving home. because Mich's slippers went missing. & i kept asking her where she put, and we were searching high and low for it. in the end, she wore my fav slippers home.
then when we went to void deck and try our luck on finding her slippers, we found them on the grass patch. & we came to the conclusion that:
MICH'S SLIPPERS WERE THROWN DOWN THE CORRIDOOR BY SOME DON'T-KNOW-WHO!!!!!!& she kept complaining that my neighbourhood not good, people anyhow throw shoes de. HAHAHH! mich, i'm so sorry... i can't help but laughed like some crazy fella, coz this is the first time i see such things. but i promise you, if you ever come to my house ever again, i'll reserve a place for your shoes ok?

mich's FB status of the day:
Michelle Wen Ying Low is sad that someone hates her... her shoes kena thrown from the corridoor to downstairs... :(

i dilly-dally until didnt feel like leaving home for the party. time flew. so fast, it was 5pm liao, & they had to leave too. me went to the NYP X'mas party. supposed to be rushing there de, but i ended up shopping a lil' at Tampines Mall first. HAHHA! OOPS!

okies. tt's abt the end. see, i tell you le, super wordy post.
i promise, there will be pictures up soon. when i upload them. HAHAH!

As requested, X'mas 2009 wishlist is out! hehehe! :))

I would be glad to get them :))--
chip&dale individual cushions
eeyore cushion?
MLB 3rd album
ear piece
chip&dale keychains
anything!!!!

i really really dun mind if i can have them too!!!
lumix camera
iPhone, iPod touch
i cannot rmb what i want le...

i promise i will be the bestest to whoever gives me this
Zettai Kareshi!!!!!!! the true, real one.
LEONG WEI MUN, if u say u going to cut and paste and give it to me, u die!!! HAHAH!

okies. i cannot rmb what i want. i thought i have everything in my mind on the bus just now. but i forgot everything when i open this blogpost. tsk!

to me, myself, i

a letter for my dearest friend:

Dear Dearest Friend,
I guess these few months had been hard on you; crying alone, keeping everything from everyone, having those memories refreshing everynight, & pretending that everything is very fine when it is actually not. I know the reason why you chose to do that. You are all along a strong person, there is no doubt in that, definitely. & that is why i chose to believe in the fact that you are able to get back on your feet once again, sooner or later. Afterall, time heals everything.

My dearest friend, are you happier now? It seems to me you are. At least it has been brought to notice after been told by a third party. & after some reflections, & i thought, yeah, you seem happier now. More relaxed, more freedom, more independence, & more smiles. Less worries, less tears. Oh well, maybe your phone would seem tooo quiet at times because there is no longer a particular 'someone' who would be constantly messaging you, contacting you. But, no worries ok? Because you still have loads of people around you who love you.

You've got many great friends, who are willing to give you the support you need. To give you a shoulder to cry on, or to cry with you. To love you for who you are, because you are who you are. To gorge in ice cream with you when you feel down. Everything, you may name it.

Girl, continue to stay happy ok? A smile a day keeps the doctor (troubles) away. I know you can definitely do it. Because you are you. the strong you. The independent you. I believe you will meet a better 'someone' soon.
& one day, if you are tired of being strong, the better 'someone' will be there to hold your hands & accompany you. To encourage you to carry on with your life, without losing the true real you. To motivate you to work harder. To be happy with you when you acheived your achievements. To be there for you, always.

& with that, i wish you all the best in everything you do. Take great care.

With warmest regards,
Your Dearest Friend-- Me, Myself & I.

i miss my
long long long long long long long long
hair!!!!!!!!!!

i miss that long long tail of mine.
sobx!!!!!
i dun like the hairdresser that cut my hair this time round.
i prefer the previous one.
oh my, why did she close down her shop?
TSK!

i want my long hair back.
how long am i suppose to wait?
hahah!

mommy, daddy, small sister are leaving for thailand on friday.
together with aunties, uncles, grand auntie, grand uncle and cousins.
practically the whole LIM family.
well, except for me, and jie jie.
let's imagine this:
while they are happily shopping away and enjoying their life in Thailand,
i am slogging my butt off at SGH.

i miss shopping!!!
i feel like going overseas for a short break.
i feel like going shopping.
i feel like going for movies.
i feel like going for movie marathon even.
oh well, my list is just going on and on and on,
while i am broke like shit!
eating grass. mooooooo~~~~

hello, boredom leads to blogging.

i am broke, like seriously. hahah!
can u imagine, i actually went to work with only 5 bucks in my wallet?
just so nice for a lunch. cool!

& there's this irritating little sister of mine going ga-ga over her Twilight guy.
she & her Jacob. idk how to spell his name la..
& i told her, everytime she speaks of Jacob, she reminds me of that particular brand of biscuits. HAHAAHAH!

i am trying my very best to be a good girl,
doing my assignment which should have been done long time ago
but now, while doing, i realize i cannot read Mr Chong's handwriting.
i need to go back and ask him once again. haiyo!!!!!!!
maybe i shld just take a picture of it, and send it to him & clarify with him through technology.
omg, randomness...

i've got tons of stuffs to do. idk how am i going to finish them all. hahah!
read my journals, collate stuffs for fyp presentation, finish up my assignment, cut hair, shopping for new stuffs, wrap the presents, do my nails... HAHAHA!

merry x'mas in coming. i've got my presents ready. have you? hahahah!

it's 5pm now, & i have yet to start on FYP. how nice

-ME-

the hundred & one reason why i simply love 09.12.09 :))
MINIMAL WORK DONE!!!!!
weee~~!!~~ hahaha!
let me share with everyone my wonderful schedule yesterday:
0830- 0915: work at SGH's SOC
0930- 1200: Infection control lecture with loads of pics taken
1200-1300: work at SGH's SOC
1300-1400: lunch
1400: BYE BYE SGH, BACK TO NYP!!!!!!
1515-1615: NTU talk (unsuccesful)
rest of day to 1645: back to BLK Q!, school library for FYP research
1930- 2145: dinner with janella dardar @ Hougang KFC
-END OF DAY-

see... so nice right? hahahah!
talked lots to janella. especially about our future.
like GOING AUSSIE!!!
yesss! we've got out future somehow or rather planned.
let's see.. (not in sequence)

1. trying out NUS,

since we got the application form,

& i've got friends who are studying there that may help me if i need.

2. work as PT first.

where? let's think abt it again when we finished attachment.

3. change of track.

if something related, (wrt medicine)

doctor? nurse? all i don't want...

4. take a general science degree.

but it wont get me near pharmacist if i dun have pharmacy related degree.

won't i just waste my 3 years in NYP or uni studying for the sake of studying?

5. let's go aussie!

1 & half years, US$77K ++

with Master in Pharmacy

o.O

but, yeah, lots of considerations.

of course not the coming feb fly over la.

must save $$ and blah blah...

6. repeat NYP 3 years.

let's go take Diploma in Forensic Science (new!)

*bullshit la, forensic science even more limited than Pharmacy in S'pore la*

7. since we want to repeat, might as well

repeat Diploma in Pharmaceutical Science

work hard unlike what we've done for the past 3 years.

get GPA 4, get into NUS pharmacy Department.

woohoo~

8. let's all go study TCM together!!!

weee~~!!~~~

*SIAO!

western medicine already CMI,

still go torture ourselves with TCM.

LOL*

9. worse come to worse.

BESTEST OF THE BEST CHOICE.
CONFIRM GURANTEE PLUS CHOP!

let's go find a rich guy,

get married,

lead a good life!

want study, can sponser.

retain, nvm.

i have the time and money to retake.

OMG!! yes, that's how rich.

& everything in US$. woo!!

don't want study? nvm, sit at home kiao ka

go tour around the world & blah blah blah.

*okies. we shall say again if we really find a billionaire boyf.*

and tada~ that's the end of yesterday.

i had super great laughs over whatever we said.

coz obviously many are plainly rubbish thoughts.

but who knows it might come true. HAHA!

*****

okies, enough of yesterday.

let's talk abt today!!!

I DID DISPENSING!!!

wee~~~

what i can say is,

i'm lucky that i have the experience from Hougang.

the best part was,

i got to dispense warfarin.

hoohoo~

my fav drug. haha!

the bestest part was,

there were 2 CRITICAL DRUGS in the prescription.

the bestest of the bestest part was,

i dispened everything in hokkien.

hoohoo~~

i'm like so proud of myself la!!!!

maybe tmr got more dispensing. idk.

must depend on my pharmacist.

she's really great. coz she trust me to do it on my own.

and she say i am EXCELLENT! hahaha!!!

:))

*beams*

*prouds*

ok.

-END OF DAY-

tata~

:))

awww...
if work isn't as tiring.. FYP is making my life more tired.
it's just like sleeping pills. it's better than any drugs that causes drowsiness.
once the cover is open, my eyes are closed.
hoohoo~ why is my topic so... -.-!!
why isn't it warfarin? maybe i could find something fun out of it?
& worse comes to worse, i will hate warfarin for the rest of my life instead of loving it.
hur hur!

i'm tired. idk why. it's not as though i can't cope with SOC la.
it's alright, it's fine. really! there's nothing there that makes me hate there, not even dislike.
but.. aiya, there are some things that cannot be written here.
*pm me if curious. haha*

i've got some photos that i want to post. but, yeah, as usual. L-A-Z-Y.
other days bah. haha!

psst, i am looking forward to tmr. know why? heh heh heh!!!! :))
i think almost everyone knows la. LOL!

ps: WHERE THE HELL IS MY REPORT BOOK? OMG!! IT'S ACTUALLY SOMEWHERE, WHERE????!!!!!!

i'm baaaaaackkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
weets~~

merry christmas celebration is brought forward to 18th instead of 23rd.
means i have 2 celebrations in 2 days straight. hoohoo~~

went back to Hougang Polyclinic today.
missed them loads loads. haha!
finally got to say byebye to my security guard friend. LOL!
must say proper byebye ma...

chatted with them quite a while. nothing much changed though. well, how much will change in 1 week? haha! but there is this feeling that this one week is like soooooo freakkingggg long. hahah! Irene is replacing us over there now. & i guess she is having loads of fun. talked a little while, topic hardly leaving our different attachment places, comparing lives in hospitals and polyclinic.

anyway, waited for charmane to end work, and we went to sit down and had a drink together. the 3 of us. Auntie Lucy ZhanSheng went rushing off like a tornado after he ended work. pfft! went to mac, crapped loads loads! so much fun, so much laughter. HAHA! talk about SGH, TTSH, HP. comparing the good and bad in TTSH, SGH, polyclinic. fun fun fun :))

after that, went to Vivo to meet KengBoon. went to fnd kally kor kor again. hahah! went around scouting for present. Thanks Kally kor kor for the advice, Thanks Suey Keng Boon for accompanying me all around. i think we really walked the whole Vivo and finally landed with the present. the funniest thing is, we think we spent more time scouting presents for ourselves rather than the main person whom i am looking for lo.. HAHAH! now, Suey Keng Boon knows what i want for Christmas. & i know what he wants for Christmas. but he says he has selected dementia. TSK!!! PFFT! LOL! Derick Choo, too bad you aren't here today!

Anyway, there was this Disney show going on at vivo today lo. there was Mickey Mouse, Minnie Mouse, Donald Duck, Goofy & CHIP & DALE!!!!!!!! omg. angela, too bad you aren't there! cute cute! if not i think me and her would have high to the max. haha!

5pm plus, went home le, coz KengBoon going Bugis meet his friends to chiong. so i went to bugis to take bus home too. cheaper la, concession. and he is good enough to pei me walk all the way there to take bus. coz his friends havent reach! hahah! irritaing. but nevertheless, thanks buddy, for the afternoon & the ice cream. haah! starbucks again! LOL!

reach home, daddy bought chicken wings. the ones from bedok blk 85. OMG!!!!! like so freaking long since i last ate food from there. miss those times.
to derick, elaine, kally kor kor, leon, wendy & maybe JianWei (if he is in singapore): WHEN ARE WE GOING THERE FOR SUPPER AGAIN????? I MISS THOSE DAYS LIKE SERIOUSLY!

helloooooo!!!!!

first week of work at SGH has ended. NO WORK ON SATURDAYS!
hoohoo!!!~~!!!~~!!!
SOC. nothing much. pick pick pack pack stone stone prepack prepack. that's all.

when i was in HP, second or third day of work, got to give Q numbers le.
over here, i am glad if they rmb me.
i dun even hope for them to teach me typing. sian!

i like work today. because i end at 5.30pm instead of the usual 6pm. :))
plus, i got to go Asthma Clinic today. :))
it's like ACC. just that ACC is warfarin, and this is asthma.
went through the different types of inhalers, used them, played with them, learnt new things, revised old things.

there is going to be a warfarin counselling lesson soon. super looking forward to it.
i want to go ACC again.
Ever since i am introduced to so many things of warfarin by Mr Chong, i want to know more about it. hahah. they told me today that ACC pharmacist would help in titrating warfarin dose. I WANT TO LEARN THAT!!

i've got 2 targets for these 12 weeks in SGH. one is dumb, the other, is wild.
the dumb one-- by end of 12 weeks, i can walk around the whole SGH knowing where i want to go even if my eyes are closed. hahah!the wild one-- i want to learn how to titrate warfarin dose!

*saya penat gila*

there doesn't seem to have much difference in OPD and SOC. well, both refers to Outpatient anyway. what can i expect? hahah! this is tiring, but i guess is only for the first few weeks, when adapting.

everyday from mrt station, i walk a superrrrrrrrr longlonglonglonglonglonglong walk to SOC clinic. haven't start work, i am already warmed up. lol!

i will be in SOC (Specialist Outpatient Clinic) for the next 3 weeks too. during these times, i need to do AT LEAST 4 DISPENSING. fairy god-mother, can you please turn this place to hougang polyclinic? Dispensing in SOC is no joke. looks much more scarier than Hougang Polyclinic. o.O

and after work everyday, i will go *saya lapar gila*
LOL! i wonder what will happen to me in the next 12 weeks. hahah!

before i end this post, here's a reply to Bestest Buddy:
it's not that i no longer need your motivation. it's just that, i wanted to show you how much i have changed, or maybe, improved. and hopefully, once again, there is another time when you can actually be proud of me. because it seems that, there isn't many a times when i could do things that would actually make you feel proud that i am your friend, isn't it? :/

i didn't realize i was so tired. & i thought SOC wasn't as bad as OPD in HP. i thought the people were more relaxed la.

in the morning, walked to station as usual, stood in mrt from tampines to outram as expected, standing and walking around the whole day as expected. evening when end work, stood all the way back from outram to tampines, as expected, and walked home as usual. i thought i wasn't tired, wasn't drained, until when i reached home & finally sit down and had the chance to stone. then i realized i was really tired. HAHAH! oh man... *shakes head* i feel old. -.-

*coughs coughs*
It hasn't got better, in fact, worse.
It has been 1 week since i saw Dr Steve about my cough and flu and whatever.  It has been 1 week since he gave me 2 bottles of that yucky-like-urgh DMP cough syrup. It has been 1 week since he told me 'no fried food, no cold food and drinks, you should know it yourself , right?'  It has been 1 week, and i wonder how much of what he said has gone into my ears; thinking of the countless fried food and cold food i had taken, countless cold drinks i had taken. Not forgetting how i had given up on that super yucky-like-shit DMP after just ONLY 5ml of it when i should be taking 10ml per dose in the first place. i wonder what will happen if MMR sees this. LOL!

okies. i am tired. i feel like sleeping le. bathe and bed time. fyp shall wait. argh!

first day of work in SGH marks the first day of FYP.

i wonder how am i going to survive these 12 weeks.

hmm...

i don't know where to start from. like seriously. LOL!

i miss taking us 72.

i miss hougang polyclinic.

i miss my security guard friend.

i miss my eye-candy doctor, and my friend doctor.

i miss working with khairul.

i miss working with amanda, angela, charmane, fanny, mj, nithyia, rence, samuel, suzy,szehui, tracy,zs, etc etc..

i miss asking ms sanisah, mr chong, ms pam to help me sign time sheet.

i miss logging into iPharm to prepare for packing even though i hate it sometimes.

i miss waiting for baskets to pick even though i hate it sometimes.

i miss sitting at the capturer's seat and capture prescription.

i miss looking at Skype and grumbling at the doctors about their ammendments.

i miss doing prepacks for our 'act cute' acute drugs.

i miss topping up the buffer bins.

aiyoyo!

i used to hope that i would leave there fast fast, didn't i?

*sigh*

i am depressed now. like seriously.

i better go back to work on my report.

i have to get something out. this is it.

do it or die horribly, Lim Shi Ping!

all i want for christmas

IS YOU...!!!!!!

MLB-- 三人套餐

：）

 *heaves a HUGE sigh of relief*

heelllllooooooooo! BACK FROM GRADING!!!!
i didn't drop my sword.
i didn't flew my spear.
but i was panicky. & STIFF!!
like omg. was seriously trembling throughout all 3 routines lor!
felt like me suffering from parkinston disease la!
i needed jin feng san to calm my nerves, i needed carvidopa-levodopa to stop those parkinston thingy, and i needed orphenidrine to help in muscle relaxant. oh wait, anarex causes drowsines.. *i'm bull shitting la*
okie, grading is over. i shall stop rambling about it.

after grading, i was super happy. i was like over the moon. don't ask me why. i don't know. i only know grading's over was PART of the reason. i felt as though i had lifted something of my shoulders, i felt light, i felt like flying. & i felt like having ICE CREAM!!!!! weird? coz ice creams are usually when i feel down. lol!

now that grading's over, i can relax a bit on wushu side. but thats not going to happen in terms of studies. FYP is starting when attachment at SGH starts. which is like.. 2 more days? this shucks, like seriously, and totally to the max.

SOMEONE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE GET ME STARTED ON MY PROJECTS. IT'S FINAL YEAR PROJECT, YOU KNOW. THOSE 'DO IT NICE OR DIE A HORRIBLE DEATH TYPE OF PROJECT'! lol! if not, my christmas, new year and chinese new year will be burnt until chao da liao. i don't want!!!!

hooohooooo!!!!
today is SATURDAY!
NO WORRRKKKKK! heh heh heh!
& i didn't went back to find them either, coz Khai isn't around too. ha! :P

27.11.09 (friday)
met jt ard 11 plus, went bugis for pray pray. after that, attempted to go and find ___'s christmas present.
unsuccesful! seriously, idk what to get for him. sigh! i seriously need a good shopping buddy to pei me go shop for it. any volunteers?????

after that, went to ECP for the wushu outing.
not bad, quite fun. throwing wm's slippers into the sea. HAH!
and see him and jt snatching each other's slippers. LOL!
plus 2 hours of cycling. everyone had a bike, except for me. -.-
coz i don't know how to cycle. so embarrassing!
the attempt to learn was a little unsuccessful too. boohoo!!! >.<
in the end, jt and rq took turns to give me a ride everywhere. FUN TO THE MAX! especially when we were having fun in the rain too. heh heh!
coz going home for dinner, so didn't stay for water games at evening. *pouts*
nvm, there is always next time, right? :D

28.11.09 (saturday)
woke up early early in the morning. send Ain & PeiFang off to aussie.
met fel & eve at 715am.
evelyn had to leave home at 0530 in order to reach in time.
& SHE MADE IT!!!!! *clap clap*
hahahh!
after that prolly half the class of us went to Swensens for breakfast with Mr Kelvin, Ms Yong & her hubby.
super fun! loads & loads of chatting, comparing how different it was in the different setting at attachment places, preparing Irene for Hougang Polyclinic attachment, preparing me and fel for SGH attachment, preparing others for NHG polyclinic attachment, joking about the funny encounters we had... oh yeah, which reminded me of Ms Hougang that we saw at the last day of our attachment. hur hur! everyone in the pharmacy was excited la! even security guard friend had to tail him. LOL!!!& that reminds me, i never say bye bye to my security guard friend. tsk. >.<

after that, went home. sleep, rest, and yupp, here i am now. i have to prepare myself for the deadly grading later. tsk! haiz. tonight they going for the Chinese Orchestra concert, & i am going to miss it. haiyo!!! hahhaha! nvm. grading more impt!!! please pray for me, please wish me good luck.
打拳不要失手，
打剑不要漏手，
打枪不要飞枪.

加油加油加油！！！

before i end this post, i want to thank my friend. THANK YOU! you know who you are. :)

 
 

loads of photos, but i worry that bs will hang on me again. so here are just some nice ones. others are in FB!

all i can say is, thank you everyone for the past 12 weeks.

there were definitely times when we were not happy, there were times when we enjoyed ourselves to the max, and there were times when we were glad that we really did our great job & proved what we are worth. heheh! we have had our grumblings and nags and loads and loads of bitching around, we have had our own classic jokes of the day. & we have had our rumours and scandals. charmane aka j-wow and khairul knows the best. LOL! as much as we were counting down to the last moment, it did felt a bit weird on the last day of work.

people asking how it feels to leave. them thanking us for helping them. and etc. however, it should be us thanking them for giving us a chance to learn instead.

the whole day went quite well today. the fact that everyone has closed 2 eyes on us. HAHAH! everything we did, we were like, 'aiya, nvm. today last day liao.' & ZS was telling khai, 'ya, today u last day. must bully you more!' hahahah!

we had our 2 hours lunch break at Hougang Mall as the foursome-- Me, Khai, Char & ZS. SUBWAY! laughed, joked, and many many more. talking about future.

like 10 years down the road, charmane would be like _______.

like 10 years down the road, ZS would be like _____.

like 10 years down the road, Khai would be like the male version of Ms Sanisah.

like 10 years down the road, I would be like the female version of Mr Chong.

WOOHOOO!!!

Khai & me had our discussions too, like what presents we would buy for the doctors in HP, from what we know about them.

like we would buy TZF & maybe Siva a notebook to note down what they want to give, so lesser ammendments.

like we would buy Saifuz a speaker so that he could speak louder in the phone & i can hear him.

like we would buy TSH a super loud telephone so she can hear the phone ringing and pick up the phone.

like we would buy CCL a stopwatch or timer that will start sounding every 30 seconds after time is up. so he wont be so slow. HAHAHA!

like we would buy ML a drug info book to look for info, calculator to calculate weeks of drug supplies, PLUS A DICTIONARY with a tag to let her know how to spell 'dispense'. HAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!

last but not least,

like how we would buy a FHM for STEVE!!!!!!! coz we know he will definitely love it! HAHAHAHHAHA!

i told khairul i want to take picture with the most handsome doctor in there. but apparently, there is no handsome doctor. (they thought my fav is not handsome lor!) & khairul said 'have, me lor!' hahahah! -.-

Mr Chong was the first person to give us a 'farewell speech'. that made me emo a while. yeah, touched, but weird. towards end, when giving out our pressies, they thank us, wish us well, wish us all the best, give us gifts, take pictures with us, laughing together, etc. touched, but did not cry. well, maybe if attachment there was 24 weeks, who knows, i might.

3 months, not long, not short. enough time for us to know what we want in future. is it, or is it not?

nevertheless, still wanna thank everyone there. there are still many people whom i did not take pictures with.

like the 3 pharmacists. I WANT TAKE PICTURE WITH THEM. THAT IS A MUST!!!! haahah!

well, we will be going back. take our log books. & there's a Christmas exchange on 23rd dec with them. i can't help but look forward to that day already. & i have to get a gift for _____. WHICH I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO GET.  haha! i duno what to buy. like seriously. LOL!

ending off, would be like what i wrote on fb.

'it's officially end of 12 weeks. we've gone to heaven, we've been through hell. & we've fought many 'FREAKING WARRRRR' together. We've survived, we've grown stronger. Thanks everyone for having us there for the 12 weeks. We've learnt lots, & we have had our fun too. See you all soon! YEAH! :)

有没有人可以告诉我，为什么我想哭，却哭不出来？ 这是怎么样的感觉？为什么会这样？想要找人诉苦，却又不知道要找谁。说了，又怎样？会有谁会相信我是这样的一个人？我想，他们，每个人，都不会相信我竟然会有这种反应。真的，太不像我了。看起来很坚强的一个人，原来是这么的脆弱， 懦弱。可是，有谁知道，脆弱和懦弱才是那真正的我？坚强从来都不是我。那只是我的面具罢了。我不想继续这种感觉，好痛苦。我好像做回我自己，还可以吗？

昨晚我失眠了。病了。
烧，来了又退，退了又来。真是的。要来就来，要退就退嘛。很累啦。
肩膀又痛的要死。好像拉到，又好像不是。不知道啦。。只知道今天做工时，非常的被影响。
疼痛--physically & mentally。。。

说了这么多，你应该好奇了吧？告诉你吧。
恭喜你，终于实现了你的承诺。只是，我不是那个受益者。
好矛盾啊！！！不理你了啦。。 真是的。我再也不想理任何问题了。
哈啦完了。再见。哈哈！

 *coughs*
amidst all the ping ping piang piang & king king kiang kiang, fever clinic is finally closed.
hoohoo~
today is week 12. LAST WEEK!
supposed to be enjoying the last week, but boohoo! SICK!
people sick on first week of work, i sick on last week of work. special duh?!

went to see doctor. like for the first time in my life,
i actually visit doctor in polyclinic. minus baby vaccine time. LOL!

yuppyupp. saw Dr Steve. LOL! *not scandalous!*
level one. bo bian. either him or another doctor, whom angela saw.
but i rather see Dr Steve coz at least we know each other. hahahha!

for the first time in 19 years. i have case notes in polyclinic leh!
woo~ i am so sua ku..
dr gave me many many meds. EXPENSIVE LEH!!!!!!
heart pain*.*

ok, this month spend so much $$ le. next month not spending so much liao. no christmas spending. boohoo!
maybe my christmas also rotting in SGH. LOL!!!

谢谢你让我知道真相，我会好好过。：）
再见了，我的好朋友。。。

*ahchoo*

outing with PS0701 mates yesterday. it was lunch cum dinner, coz steamboat! hahaha!
i 'replied all' in the email stating i will be late because i've got training at HW.
end up, i was the first to reach Simei lor!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA!
food wasn't bad. me, nel, eve and xinhui shared a table. & our results were WOOHOO! haha.
3 scoopes of butter, 5 full plates, 3 kettles of top-ups, and what else???
many many scoops of ice cream? hahah!
supperrrrr fattening, im gonna have a crash diet soon. LOL! like i'll rmb.

discussed many many things.
gossiped, bitched.. and many many.
work, studies, FYP!!!!!
omg. 1 more week, i am chionging FYP le. omgomgomgomg!!!
looking at calendar, if i do not want to chiong FYP & report during CNY,
i am so going to start now, before i can't finish it.

ohohoh.. and graduation trip too!!!!!!!
looking forward to that. i hope it happens. hee :)

***

training at night.
3 routines as usual.
buang-ed spear. like totally.
idk why. felt so sick. my shoulder was aching like shit.
second try wasn't that bad. but still, shoulder no strength.
grading's on saturday. can i make it?

hoohoo~
rest 1 day, and it's monday.
& it's officially 4 more days of work.
somehow or rather, gonna miss it. surprised?
don't be. because no matter what, it is afterall a place where once groom me.
if there's a chance, who knows, maybe i will choose there again.
despite the heavy load and such. because, who knows, we may get used to it one day.

Ms Pam was sort of cool to let me & Khai choose our own shift on our last week. haha!
so we chose the 0830 one. together.
why together? coz for the past 11 weeks, we have never worked the same shift together.
hahah!

****

lighter side of life besides work.
MLB's third album is out!
i wanna have it! hahah!
nic is still shuai! heh!

hello Mr. White

:)

hello bloggie,
today's work is super emooo-momo.
it's full of mixed feelings.
there wasn't much time when i felt that i was happy while working today.
most of the time, i was feeling :( & i can't believe my tears almost dropped out.

you know, usually when we pick and pack medicines,
we don't have much feelings. as in, we feel neutral.
sometimes, we make comments.
today, i packed a basket of medication of someone whom i knew.
& i felt so.... weird?
felt like a tinge of sorry.
everyday, there are many people in Singapore coming to this small place and collect the same medication.
some more, some less, some more serious, some less serious.
but this person's basket of medication actually made a bigger impact on me.
& this person, unexpectedly, remembers me.
he may not know who am i exactly. but he, for sure, & i am sure, knows me for who i am.
because we came from the same place,
the place which moulds me to who and where am i today.

***

do you know how it feels to feel being let down?
how it feels to be disappointed.
i was like so looking forward. but i was let down.
maybe they were really busy. i don't know.
it's just 2 weeks left.
is it so hard for me to learn more new things in the last 2 weeks?
don't understand.

hoohoo~
blog blog blog. keehee!

today today today
is TIME-OFF DAY!!!
today is a gooooooooooooood dayyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!
(minus the construction working at void deck from 9am onwards. -.-)

today is rainy rainy rainy rainy.
such a good day to rot at home.
such a good day to snuggly snuggly snuggle in bed.
heh heh heh!

i feel so lucky not working today.
but if tmr is rainy, i still need to work too.
nvm. at least i have one day-- today. :)

this is my one & only time-off day.
enjoying it with Forensic Heroes.
heehee :)

anw, received wrt SGH attachment thing le.
inpatient. as expected. omg.
fel fel.we shall stick to each other like superglue ok?

tata~

Have you ever been in love Horrible isn't it ? It makes you so vulnerable . It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up . You build up all these defenses , you build up a whole suit of armor , so that nothing can hurt you , then one stupid person , wanders into your stupid life .. You give them a piece of you . They didn't ask for it . They did someting dumb one day , like kiss you or smile at you , then your life isn't yours anymore . Love takes hostages . It gets inside you . It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness , so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart . It hurts . Not just in the imagination . Not just in the mind . It's a soul-hurt , a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain . i hate love .

-Neil Gaiman

but i still love love.

for who the person is;

for how the person makes me feel;

for how the person makes me into.

tired. boohoo~

i thought sat would pass smoothly.
i thought Mr White would give me better luck at work.
i thought i thought.

& really, everything passed quite well.
until the last 10 minutes.
'scolded' by doctor.
spoil my day.

now, i hate warfarin. i hate ACC.
stupid irritating pills.
rarr rarrr!

monday onwards, it's week 11.
2 more weeks.
i am tired.
i wanna try something new.
i dont want to do picking and packing for the rest of my life.
i rather go in front and sit with one dispenser and learn dispensing.
at least i learn something new.

monday, 16th nov.
shall be one of the happiest time in my 3 months of attachment.
coz it's time-off day.
i claimed all the 7 and half hours i have into one day off.
great!
i shall rot myself to the last bit. :)

hoohoo!
this week work sooo fun!
hahaha!

actually this week afternoon shift is at fever clinic.
but in the end no have because of some reasons.
so stayed in OPD lo.
but there were days when i did went over to help out too.
keke!!

tuesday;

no new love from this week onwards.
this week was Khairul's turn.
hahaah!
ACC is cool to max.
but recently a bit tired of warfarin.
maybe because have been counting too much loose tablets le. haiz

wednesday;

Mr Kelvin came to visit Khairul.
of course he did not forget me.
heh heh!
did chat a little with him though.
&&&
was stationed morning shift at fever clinic.
& there were 2 old patients who could only speak hokkien.
and fever was only me & Kamsiah.
so i had to do translation.
so the situation became
old people speaking chimilogy hokkien to a girl who speaks easy hokkien.
i felt like a chicken talking to a duck.
LOL

thursday;

did first ever dispensing.
before that, we went through a little more on retail stuffs.
and me and Khai were like so tired.
actually, our brain were already in snooze mood from roll call onwards. hahah!

wore lab coat @ work.
different people, different opinions.
suzanna said i looked like a mad scientist. -.-
khai, ZS, charmane they all say i look like doctor. :)
i forced charmane to say i look damn cool in lab coat. :D
i forced them to say i look like Tim-sir in Forensic Heroes in lab coat. ;p

dispensing was fun.
the two of us sat beside Ms Sanisah
and she showed us how to do dispensing lo.
then she made us do it too.
but we dare not.
haha.
she forced me to do it first la.
and luckily i did.
coz the basket had only 1 medicine. hoohoo!!!
so did the dispensing. was diclofenac sodium
i will remember lor!
i did everything nice nice. but i forgot to indicate DA. LOL!!!
but ok la. overall.. quite fun. heh!

after work, walk with charmane to Hougang Mall.
talk about work, about dispensing.
& i told her, i hope to attach to someone who has patience.
hahaha. because what i think i lack in me, is patience.
& hopefully the 'buddy' i am attached to is able to 'influence' me.
but in such a short time, i guess it would be hard.

friday;

Samuel played some magic tricks for us to see. hahah!
& yes, we were stunned.
especially the 'women's intuition' one.
damn cool la.
coz he didnt even handled the cards. & yet the trick was successfully done.
*stunned* *claps for him*
no wonder Uncle Amran always call him 'magic man'.
haahah!

today's work was not special though.
i broke my record, because i did not log in my account to do packing.
only do capturing. heh!
felt lazy to do all these things.
i'm left with 2 weeks,
I WANT DO SOMETHING SPECIAL!!!!!!

*****

i've gotten my white specky!
hehe!!!!
i love my Mr White.
heh! :)

-MISSED-

hoohoo!

blog blog blog~

i wanna blog about saturday before i forget. heheheh!

first, work.

actually that day got fever clinic de.

then in the end dun have.

then in the end have again. LOL!

i was like running here and there between both sides la.

i was damn suay on that day too.

first, the pharmacy system was down.

and if that is not troublesome enough,

i got locked out of my own account too.

ITD was too busy to help me.

& took them like whole morning to get me logged in once again.

hahahahah!

by the time they got me logged in,

it was time for me to take my bag & say byebye liao. wahahahahah!
& if that was not enough,
i stupidly and dumbly cut my own finger with a pair of scissors,
& ended up with a bloody finger that got bandaged up in the treatment room.
the nurse even came over to pharmacy to look for me coz she thought it was a super deep wound.
(eh, pain leh, even though in the end say it was superficial cut)

secondly, IVP.

chiong-ed down to NP via bus 74 from Hougang.

thanks to SzeHui & Fanny & Coach GuangYao for the tips.

by the time i reached, was over half time.

caught the long weapons, soft weapons, sparring & team.

woohoo to Team NYP.

we got overall second.

YEAH YEAH YEAH!

toured around NP a little while finding my way to sports hall.

sorry cousin, no offence, but.

i felt a little glad that i am not studying in that school la.

hahah!

after the whole competition, shared cab with QJD.

he came around when sparring time. 

a 'wonderful senior' who rushed down to watch his teammates compete right after his booking out.

hur hur! LOL!

& a 'sweet' senior who helped his junior carry his weapons & help me carry my bag

coz i am like sooo lazy to carry it while my back is aching like shit.

(eh, he should feel honoured that i let him carry that precious adidas bag hor!)

LOL!

actually was suppose to share with JT, CW and YT.

but ended up split cab coz no one willing to take 5 people.

dropped QJD off at Hougang, then i cabbed back to TM to meet family.

super ex can!

totally forgot about this thing called 35% surcharge lah.

but luckily i still ok with the cab fare.

lastly, family night.

met family (except daddy coz he got wedding dinner)

for SWENSENS dinner.

jie jie treat leh!

hahah. know why she treat?

coz i have been bugging her to treat. hoho!

swensens was nice nice nice!

after that went to optic shop.

i was supposed to get my contact lens solution.

but the shop discontinued it.

& i ended up buying a new pair of specs.

-.-!!!

my intention was just to let jie jie see which one i wear look nicer.

ask her if the red one is nicer or the white one.

in the end,

i thought i like white nicer while everyone says red is nicer.

blah blah blah..

anw,

i ended up with white coz i still think i like white better.

then i bought it liao.

OMG!

and 200+ bucks just flew away like this.

hahahahah!

but ok la, this amount of money.. is sooner or later de. heh!

& yes, this is my wonderful yet tiring saturday. heh!

work:

yeah, let's continue blogging about work.

it's into week 10!!!!!

week 9 has just ended.

next week, we are into dispensing already.

yeah yeah!

it has been fever clinic morning shift this whole week.

not bad. time pass quite fast.

i surprise myself by always being on time for work.

being the third person to reach HP after Mr Chong & Uncle Ahmad

(they always reach at 0730 de.)

& that's not because i cabbed there unlike my first 8am shift.

even though i have been snoozing my alarm clock for the whole week.

leading to me running to interchange to catch my bus. heh!

well well.. 

guess what.

next week, i am going to fever clinic again.

haha. but next week is afternoon shift la.

2 straight weeks at fever clinic.

i hope the third week, i am not there as a patient.

OMG. choi! *touch wood*

this whole week, i am having break on my own because of different timing with Khairul.

feel so lonely lor.

i miss gossiping with him,

i miss bitching in front of him.

yesterday, we went to mac mac to have dinner.

gossiped, bitched, & laughed at lots of things.

things that happened at OPD when i wasn't around,

things that happened at Fever Clinic when he wasn't around,

sharing our different experiences... 

laughing our heads off.

creating scandalous rumours among ourselves.. *shhh*

attachment life is great when you have a super great buddy.

yeah! :)

i don't care if they are reading my blog or not.

i trust that they do not stalk me.

me:

somehow,

sort of realize that i only come to cherish things when i have lost them.

& the problem is, i don't learn my lesson.

& that is why i have been losing so many precious things.

you know what, 

the promise i gave you.

i have always kept it. really.

i've got a feeling;

all along, you think that i would not mean it.

i would not keep it.

but the fact is, all along, i have always meant my word.

i have always remember what i promise you.

& i have always been keeping my word.

but have you?

不是我食言， 是你先放弃我。

how many weeks have passed?

how long has the very very very last promise been given & yet still not fulfilled?

i once wrote that i will not ask you for it.

i won't.

you are one irritating person who is messing up my emo life.

entertainment:
finished 仁心解码 quite long ago.
the ending was a little stupid.
that time actually want to watch 下一站，幸福.
introduced by Evelyn.
but it's still a new show. so i am waiting for it to finish airing le then watch ba.
hahaha!
the bored me is now happily watching Forensic Heroes all over again.
yes! 法政先锋!!
watching that show makes me miss lab coat days.
working at OPD now, i wish that i have a white coat like the pharmacists.
the long sleeves one.
so formal, so cool, so shuai.
watching Forensic Heroes makes me wish that i can put on my white coat, working in lab.
but aiya, i've come to a conclusion that i am not fit to work in wet lab. haha!
&&& did i tell anyone that when i watch that show,
the person whom i admire most is Tim-Sir?
simply love his brains. the walking encyclopedia. 
hur! how i wish i have brains like him.
& Khairul & I have come to a conclusion that the fastest way to become a walking encyclopedia
would be:

burning BNF and Martindale and stir them into water and drink it up.

hur hur!!!!!  

oh well.. haven't been blogging for quite some time?
this week.. nothing special anyway..

work:
fever clinic all morning.
except the fact that i got 'scolded' on Skype for nothing
there isnt much special.
anw, the 'scolding' wasn't even my fault.
apparently, the biatch did not get her facts right before she types.
ain't bothering myself with her & her nonsense. *humphs*

tuesday,
unexpectedly, i got to go ACC again.
was quite happy coz ACC was like my new love.
but this week's one was abit.. erm... indigestable.
i got wow-ed again.
i felt sort of dumb. LOL!

& & &
ILO finally remembers me!
hoohoo!!
he's coming to visit. like finally!!!
hahaha!!!
but after he comes, i have nothing to look forward to already.
:( LOL!

wushu:
grading's coming.
i am so not prepared.
mentally.
discouraged; unmotivated.
whatever~
chiong chiong chiong all the way!

i dont know why am i posting this now. maybe due to emo-ness.
had a small chat with kor kor last week.
& it was a happy & depressing chat.

happy;
because it has been a long time since we last chatted.
it's not always that kor kor come look for me for a chat lo.
haha.
& because he got what he wanted.
he has a bright future
he knows what he wants in future.
& he has gotten it.
congrats.

depressed;
because on the other hand,
i dont know what i want.
my future is grey.

i dont know where to go.
many ask me, would i want to further my studies?
& i say, yes, if situation allows.
i know i still have 3 more months. but it seems like it's time to think about it le.

mr chong asked where would i go
nithyia asked me if i would go back to HP
& many others...
my reply is still idk.

study? where?
NUS? let's face the reality.
Private? how about the time and the cost per module?
Aussie? for 4 years. can i make it?
& the cost of going aussie.

aussie used to be in the back of my brain. i wont even think of it.
but now i am actually thinking of it.
but, can i afford? in terms of finance & abilities.
come on la, i am not that smart.
what if i can't make it there.
would i come back crying?
unless i go marry a billionaire who will sponser me to study there.
& even if i repeat, i still can survive.
-.-!

work?
as what?
PT?
pick, pack and dispense drugs for the rest of my life?
10 years down the road,
20 years down the road,
30 years down the road,

i am still picking, packing, and dispensing drugs.
like what i have done during attachment.
would i be contented?

as a PT, no matter where i go
my job scope will never change.

with a pharmacist license, i can do more than just cooping myself in a place.
a different environment, & i can learn new things.
comparing a polyclinic, hospital & retail.
see the diff?
can i do the same if i am a PT?

haiz...

hoohoo~
it feels as though it is just a month ago when Khairul & I were like
'11 weeks & 6 more days to end of attachment.'
a blink of an eye, we are left with 3 weeks to end of attachment @ HP.

today is stock take day.
like what everyone hoped, everything ended fine.
i had fun counting the counters assigned to me.
my 'act cute' drugs. haha!
i was fine throughout the whole process,
except for a part when some bitch had to come on & spoil everything.
messing up my counting without telling me.
so pissed, i felt like messing up her counters by messing up all her prepacks.

time flew throughout stock take.
& when it was time to go home, it was raining super heavily.
lightning, thunder, everything.
Khairul, Charmane & i ran across the road to bus stop to wait for our bus.
we were drenched despite our umbrellas. LOL
kept laughing at each other. many cabs passed by, but no buses.
till we got fed up, wanted to get cab.
but whenever a cab passed, no one stopped it.
HAHA! but we hopped onto one in the end because there was really no bus la!
wonder what happen to all buses lor...
cabbed to hougang mall, dinner-ed & home.

*****

had been drinking coffee these few days as breakfast so as to prevent myself from falling asleep at work.
until now, i think i have caffeine tolerance.
i can sleep on bus despite a cup of coffee.
i wonder what will happen next week. LOL

*****

dear ILO,
do you remember that you still have a student in Hougang Polyclinic?
& she is still waiting for you to go and visit her before her last 3 weeks ends.
waiting until her neck has grown long. haha!
i think i will cry if Mr Kelvin comes and visit Khairul, but left me aside.
*pouts*

*****

silence is the best friend who never betrays.
- PC at HP

this week start work at 0930.
next week start work at 0800.

no 'eye candy' for 2 weeks.
awww...... boohoo! hahah!

on a brighter side,
0800hr work & it's morning shift at fever clinic.
heh heh heh!
& ending work at 1630 means woohoo!
hahah.

stock take tmr.
let's pray that everything's gonna turn out fine.
am so going to use the methods kally kor kor taught last time.
hope everything ends on time. :)

hellooo! hehe!
today's only tuesday.
but i am blogging about work. heeheh!

***

this week is late shift.
dont know why, but i just dun like it this week.
& it's just plainly because i don't like it.
haiz.
 work late shift means cannot see eye candy.
*pouts* hahahah!

everyday, i go out of home late.
& that means--
chionging all traffic lights even though it is still red man. (cannot learn ah!)
running after green man at traffic lights.
walking damn fast to the interchange on time to catch my bus.
running after my bus at the interchange.

[tmd. i didn't even ran that fast during my NAPFA 2.4km run lor.
$&&&*^%&$&()))_%%^&^*
LOL!]

Monday (26th oct)
work was horrible.
was deprived of sleep like totally.
could almost doze off at any one point of time.
submitted log book, writing that i hope to get to ACC (Anti-coagulant Clinic) one day.
& the next thing i know, Ms Sanisah told me, tmr got ACC, & i can go with Mr Chong.
woohooo!!!!!
reached home & wanted to study hard to prepare for ACC,
coz Mr Chong would definitely ask me questions.
but i was too tired.
slept at 9pm last night, thinking that i would wake up earlier today to study.
but, hur hur, i ended up sleeping it away. LOL!

Tuesday (27th oct)
super duper excited to go ACC. idk why. hahaha!
read up on warfarin on the bus.
i brought my lecture notes along! dun laugh. it helped lor! haha!

during work, keep telling Khairul that i scared Mr Chong would forget to bring me along to ACC clinic.
but in the end he didn't leh!!!
during lunch break, he came up to the pantry, & told me where the room is.
& he left a note with Samuel to tell me go the room find him.
SO GOOD RIGHT???!!!! hahahhah!
took my notebook & notes & stuffs, and went to find him.
patient wasn't there yet
(anw, pt put aeroplane in the end lor -.-)

so i had one hour of warfarin lesson with Mr Chong.
he taught me super many things.
explained lots of things which were not elaborated from lecture notes too.

& of course, asked me lots of questions.
he's super patient with me;
let me think of what i want to say,
although he laughed at me coz there were things which i could not think through.
yes, he LAUGHED at me. hard to imagine lor!

anw, he was super nice. & he complimented me
say my knowledge is there, but just need more exposure on application.
because  know how to answer his questions, as in can grasp the points
but not totally exactly to the point.
 he also say we've got good lecturers in NYP. hahaha!
i brought my lecture notes with me to the clinic,
& he let me refer. in the end, he also got look through the notes
to see what we learnt.

i was sad that there wasn't any patients today.
then he told me, there is always next time. means next week or 2 weeks later.
he might talk to Ms Sanisah about it again. SO GOOD!!!!!!!!!
then he ask me why i love ACC so much. he thought i tired of picking & packing.
but i told him coz it's interesting. & while others dun have the choice to come, i have it.
& he just laughed. like LOL! -.- didn't expect that.

anw, i hope i get to go ACC next week again.
dont mind getting questions again. hahahaha!

suddenly, i sort of 'admire' Mr Chong a lot.
hahaha.
not because of what (dun think y y),
but because of his knowledge towards things.
envious? maybe?
fanny & others once say that he is the 'walking dictionary' of the pharmacy.
he knows super lots of things.
even when Nithyia was preparing for her competency test, he was helping her, guiding her with chimilogy stuffs.

suddenly, i hope to be like him one day.
if i have the chance to study more,
i want to learn more.
& not only have the knowledge, but also to apply it as well.

i dun exactly have to be the best among everyone.
i just want to bring out the best in me.