stress!!!!!!!

right.
maybe i should really revive my blog. or my archives would be super pathetic.
not as though i dont want to blog. but... these few weeks would be rather stressful. =x

school:
common tests are over. but right after that, we had depressing news that we didn't really did well for it. and lecturers asking over and over again what exactly happened to us. and to be frank, i don't even know why. takre basic pharmcology as an example. all lecturers just keep asking: 'heard that u guys didn't do well for it. what happen? must say, then we can help u. ' heard so much of it, that i feel that they are rubbing salt to my wound. as though i would want myself to do badly for it. but i dont have my paper back, i dont even know what went wrong in the first place, how am i suppose to identify the problem???????

then, it is now time for us to choose, to be pharmaceutical track, or clinical trials track. which seems to be a heavy decison. because. seriously, both tracks, to me, have their pro-s and cons. i would choose pharmaceutical track because i know that the strict SOP rules might just drive me nuts. and i think i might be unsuitable to get involved in interaction with oncology patients. however, the modules that are going to be studied would definitely drive me nuts. and there is also a chance in doing retail pharmacy, which i don't intend to branch into, because i totally do not like retail. especially after working close to 2 years at g2. then, i would choose clinical trials, because this was one of the reason why i chose to stay in DPS. and of course, the modules seems to be lighter.

it is week 13 now. right after common tests, when we haven't even got time to heave a sigh of relief, breathe some fresh air after coming down the mountain, we need to prepare for basic pharmacology and drug delivery systems tests again. how nice. which, after this, we have our pharmacy practice presentation, basic immunology project, drug delivery system project, which seriously, i don't seem to understand what the journal is trying to say. and marketing e-case. which i am sort of stuck. people might think. after this, and i can relax abit? BULLSHIT!! after all these, it is just going to be more mountain climbing to prepare for exams. =(((((

wushu
national competition is coming. and it is clashing horribly with my exam study break. which means, i have to, die die to, train hard for my gong li quan, and start my mountain climbing earlier than anyone else. to other seniors, they may be bouncing between more than one category, so they would be more stressful for the. so i think i should not complain that gong li quan is too hard for me. seeing the fact that we had went through grading for it anyway. but i know in my heart, my standard is not up to it yet, and hence, more training is definitely needed. taking part in competition has been one of my dream ever since i liked wushu. and since i have the chance now, i must not let go of it, and instead, fight for it. JIAYOU!!! oh yahs. and i 'ordered' my costume le. i got it light blue with white linings. i hope it turns out the way i want it to be. hahhaa.

yesterday's training really got into me, seeing the fact that i was only left with 15 minutes after arriving at the CC, when i cabbed down from tampines mall. i know it seems like crazy. but seriously, if i had taken bus 293, i think i would have reached at 9pm instead. when everyone ended. -.- many pointers were pointed put by GuangYao coach. which means many more parts to be corrected as well as improved on. with coaches, seniors as well as fellow peeps' encouragement, TEAM NYP JIAYOU!!!!! no matter where we represent. =)))))

work
this is definitely getting from bad to worse. kally kor kor told me that the boss is getting fed-up over my changing of schedule so many times last minute because it simply just cocks up the whole month schedule. to put it bluntly, i have cocked up many schedule due to school. it's not as though as long as i can find someone to cover me, i can be let off. their hours have to be taken into considerations. kally kor kor told me to put days which i am confident with, to prevent such cocking up. but, the only days which i have confident in is only on weekends. yet, i am suppose to squeeze out oneeeday for them no matter what. seriously, i dont know what to do too. and with competition and exams coming, my requests are all making people's life hard as well. and i do feel bad. though kally kor kor tells me that this is part of school and can't be helped. but somehow or rather, the guilt is still there.

bad things aside. DERICK AND JONATHAN ARE COMING BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! which is so damn yipeeee to me. hahha. i dont know about jonathan's schedule. but i think he is working weekdays more than weekends. so i hope he can cover my weekdays. derick would be working on weekends, which means that, hey, i finally have companion back!!!!!!!!!!!! with priss either having exam like now, or always gt caught to ladies side to help out. i am always so lonely at work. and derick is like back after 6 to 7 months. hehehhe.. with him around, i guess things would be easier to be handled at work because of his experience, and with him around, i hope sundays would be easier for me to be let off as well.

i guess that is all for now. it's such a long post already.
camp pictures, sadly, they have to wait.
until when, im nt sure as well.
hehe
=)