i don't know why, but i seem to have been doing things that makes me feel guilty. first, i actually forgot to message xiaomao on her birthday. i was actually one day late. after reading her blog, and knowing that she had been waiting for my message fo the whole day, but did not received it at all until 17th nov 12am, really makes me feel very guilty. to think i had forgotten my bestest friend's birthday. grr.. though she says she doesn't mind, i still feel guilty about it. >.<>.<